A Retrospective on my misdoings
Well...how's this for an update? It's been nearly 12 years since my last post. So why even bother? I'm doing this for myself, as a reminder and a form of atonement of my stupid, naive, hopeful, stupid, stupid, STUPID past self. A confession of youthful idiocy. But it was a learning experience and part of my short, small existence. I hurt people. But the hard part is realizing I was so self-absorbed at the time I didn't even realize the harm being done. The opportunity lost. The true love I squandered. I look forward to the future now, but there is always that part of you that wishes to go back in time and try it all again with the knowledge and maturity you can only gain through age. I still haven't figured it all out, but at least now I can confidently say time is passing by too fast and don't be an angry person. Just don't. Be a happy, open, loving person even if you have to fake it sometimes because you will actually become that person in time.