Christmas Wish list
My wish list in no particular order
I want...
1. Heaven to visit me.
2. Serena to visit me.
3. I would like for Santa or even Chanukah Harry to make my allergies disappear.
4. For people I love to think about the family we built and be willing to work on shit on its behalf if they can't come to it on their own.
5. I wish that we all have the strength to do the right thing even when it is not the easiest way, or if it bruises our pride.
6. I hope that we can all forgive this season. Anger, hate and sadness have been permeating the actions of people I love making them hard to stand and damaging relationships and trust that I value and that they once valued. I hope that this can be acknowledged and healed so that all isn't permanently destroyed. My love is unconditional, but I am human, and there is only so much shiting on I can take before I retreat to loving from afar, I don't hold the cards...you have them all...
7. We must all swallow our pride from time to time and in relationships, to sustain them, you must learn how to agree to disagree...
8. I taught you how to operate in secrecy through dealing with a mentally ill, evil, and powerful person in that manner. I played his puppet for ten years so that I could try to make sure you guys would be okay...that I could give you some love, fun and a role model...so that you might make better choices than your bio-parents did. I did his dance. I would calculate everything or try...to get the desired result.....now I see that I was a role model....you operate in this way...I wish I could show you that is the wrong way, that I could see no other way for me to be in your lives, I tried all the right ways to do it…in the end I decided between compromising my integrity or never seeing you all again. I acted this way to deal with someone who is evil, and unreasonable this was not meant to be a template for life. It looks like that is how you are using this, I know you are a better person that this. I am also worried because it is unhealthy for you and those around you to live like that and it is morally wrong. I feel horrible because I taught you. It is ironic to me that with all the Felons, scam artists, society leaches, drug addicts, and perverts around that I was trying to shield you from; I am the one that taught you this reprehensible behavior. Just stop, for your own good please, there is a higher road.
9. I want to know more about this ring that was referred to in a live journal post...I was not born yesterday...if it is what I think it is I have some sub wishes....
Sub wishes:
A> That someone with the last name Briddle have the respect and dignity to ask for someone's hand (and Yes I am her parent, she didn't come out of my vagina...but have no doubts, she is my child.)
B> That I get to see such ring, cause rings are pretty.
C> While I am fairly sure everyone knows my opinion on early marriage (especially those that create helpless children), so I will spare you the lecture. I want to say that I may not agree with a decision or even like it but it does not mean that I will not give my blessing...I am not saying that I will either...but that I will try to have an open mind about it if this ring is what I think it is.
I want...
1. Heaven to visit me.
2. Serena to visit me.
3. I would like for Santa or even Chanukah Harry to make my allergies disappear.
4. For people I love to think about the family we built and be willing to work on shit on its behalf if they can't come to it on their own.
5. I wish that we all have the strength to do the right thing even when it is not the easiest way, or if it bruises our pride.
6. I hope that we can all forgive this season. Anger, hate and sadness have been permeating the actions of people I love making them hard to stand and damaging relationships and trust that I value and that they once valued. I hope that this can be acknowledged and healed so that all isn't permanently destroyed. My love is unconditional, but I am human, and there is only so much shiting on I can take before I retreat to loving from afar, I don't hold the cards...you have them all...
7. We must all swallow our pride from time to time and in relationships, to sustain them, you must learn how to agree to disagree...
8. I taught you how to operate in secrecy through dealing with a mentally ill, evil, and powerful person in that manner. I played his puppet for ten years so that I could try to make sure you guys would be okay...that I could give you some love, fun and a role model...so that you might make better choices than your bio-parents did. I did his dance. I would calculate everything or try...to get the desired result.....now I see that I was a role model....you operate in this way...I wish I could show you that is the wrong way, that I could see no other way for me to be in your lives, I tried all the right ways to do it…in the end I decided between compromising my integrity or never seeing you all again. I acted this way to deal with someone who is evil, and unreasonable this was not meant to be a template for life. It looks like that is how you are using this, I know you are a better person that this. I am also worried because it is unhealthy for you and those around you to live like that and it is morally wrong. I feel horrible because I taught you. It is ironic to me that with all the Felons, scam artists, society leaches, drug addicts, and perverts around that I was trying to shield you from; I am the one that taught you this reprehensible behavior. Just stop, for your own good please, there is a higher road.
9. I want to know more about this ring that was referred to in a live journal post...I was not born yesterday...if it is what I think it is I have some sub wishes....
Sub wishes:
A> That someone with the last name Briddle have the respect and dignity to ask for someone's hand (and Yes I am her parent, she didn't come out of my vagina...but have no doubts, she is my child.)
B> That I get to see such ring, cause rings are pretty.
C> While I am fairly sure everyone knows my opinion on early marriage (especially those that create helpless children), so I will spare you the lecture. I want to say that I may not agree with a decision or even like it but it does not mean that I will not give my blessing...I am not saying that I will either...but that I will try to have an open mind about it if this ring is what I think it is.