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I'm doing okay. I'm so lonely without my mom. She was, honestly, my best friend, and a good chunk of my time was spent on the phone with her, texting her, and hanging out with her. I have no one to call when work is slow. I have no one to come visit me there. I have no one who knows me like she did.
Honestly, sometimes I just want to lay down and die. I know I have to be strong, that'd she want me to be, but sometimes I wish I was in the ground with her.
But most of the time I'm okay. I'm just now starting to go out and see my friends. I went to a show a couple weeks ago, and that was nice, but I just wanted to go home after awhile, so I did. I haven't seen really anyone since the funeral, and I have a shitload of e-mails and messages I haven't responded to, but I don't feel like doing everything right now.
Anyway.
Honestly, sometimes I just want to lay down and die. I know I have to be strong, that'd she want me to be, but sometimes I wish I was in the ground with her.
But most of the time I'm okay. I'm just now starting to go out and see my friends. I went to a show a couple weeks ago, and that was nice, but I just wanted to go home after awhile, so I did. I haven't seen really anyone since the funeral, and I have a shitload of e-mails and messages I haven't responded to, but I don't feel like doing everything right now.
Anyway.