I'm a filthy liar....hahahaaha....
I am not a filthy liar. I am merely very indecisisve. I don't want to fall back into the black hole that I was in a year ago. There is no guarantee whether or not I will sink or swim. No one knows-not even me. I can't really afford LSU. The truth is-half the things I want to study I can read about on my own. I learn better by teaching myself. Classes bore me and so does sitting still. If I stay where I'm at I'll get out of school a hell of allot faster. I'll have alot less debt which means I will be able to do the things I want to do sooner. If I leave-would that mean I am running away-I'm not sure. I'm not sure of a whole lot some days and I'm so sure the next. All I know is I have allot more confidence than before. I am allot more stable. I don't want to fuck that up at all. Amber and I looked at some really nice apartments today. It made me want to stay. We've been planning this for so long. I don't want to miss the opportunity. I did lose 40 bucks to LSU. Oh well. Win some, Lose some. I guess I lost that one. I still have a little time to decide. Do I want to lose another 150 on the chance I don't even go to LSU....I can't afford that. Who am I kidding. I started reading about photography again. I want to get back into that. I need a camera bag-I guess Matt isn't going to pull through. Oh well. I'm already thinking about where to get a seasonal job. I need two jobs when I'm off for Christmas. I need a car and I want this fine pair of Puma's. We shall see how it all goes.