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[enamoredbysound]

my heart is racing extra hard today
there are things I thought I was over
and I suppose I was wrong
maybe I will never actually move beyond
all of those wasted years
when I played pretend like
it was my job
just another's days work of envisioning
my own worth in someone else's eyes
who was too blind to really see all
I have in store
like window shopping
walking by day after day gazing and
never really buying into me
and all I did was peer outside of the
glass and hope-one day they will try
me on for size
really try something real
and the days went by and the years
eventually, I was retired, no longer
in fashion-four years is quite awhile
to keep the same vision of perfection
in mind-even if I was the only one
who believed this would be forever
deceived as I was once
making believe is much easier
than opening my eyes and seeing
the reality when I hear this time
around "I am not going to leave you"
because honestly
I do not even know what the
word forever means anymore