Eugh life!
So, life has been great to me as always. And of course my life is not completely miserable, but I must rant, bitch, complain, and whatever else you must do. This is a bitching and moaning journal entry about my life. So as some of you know I was diagnosed with RSD, that hit me quite hard, but I am doing better and have come to the terms that my right leg may always suck. I, yet again, have TMJ. I have arthritis in my jaw and it is INFLAMED!! Which means that the uscles are really sore. So I am NOT ALLOWED to play my flute. At the time I was crushed. I cried quite a bit, but decided that I can play piano instead. I got over that, sort of. Then I got this awful stomach ache that resembled the flu in many ways. I tried to tough it out in school, but was slowly dying so I got my mum to dismiss me. So I have had that for a WEEK now. I am on loads of pills now. And they have to run more tests. And they think that I may have Khrone's (could be spelt wrong) disease. This is a genetic disease and WILL NOT GO AWAY. It makes me extremely beyond depressed. Not to say that the lives of the people that have it are miserable. But at the moment this is a lot of crap that I have to deal with. Essentially, I do not want to.
Secondly, something has been bothering me that Jon said and I have decided I shall talk to him about it. But in the meantime I must rant. We were tlaking on the phone and he said, "You know it's been a lot about you lately." And I was like (but did not say), well you're the one who came up here to see me in tears and screaming pain when I told you not to come. I mean when I talk to him if he doesn't tell me anything how can I make it about him? How can I make it any more about him than asking him how he is and listening to him. So I don't know if he wants me to go and do fun things and be miserable, o if he's pissed because we're not fooling around because I'm really ill. I mean it sounded really selfish and I don't really know if it was just something he said but didn't mean. Or if he means it and he is accusing me of being selfish, or if I'm selfish and have no clue. All I have to say is it's stressing me out and I CANNOT wait to talk to him about it.
Secondly, something has been bothering me that Jon said and I have decided I shall talk to him about it. But in the meantime I must rant. We were tlaking on the phone and he said, "You know it's been a lot about you lately." And I was like (but did not say), well you're the one who came up here to see me in tears and screaming pain when I told you not to come. I mean when I talk to him if he doesn't tell me anything how can I make it about him? How can I make it any more about him than asking him how he is and listening to him. So I don't know if he wants me to go and do fun things and be miserable, o if he's pissed because we're not fooling around because I'm really ill. I mean it sounded really selfish and I don't really know if it was just something he said but didn't mean. Or if he means it and he is accusing me of being selfish, or if I'm selfish and have no clue. All I have to say is it's stressing me out and I CANNOT wait to talk to him about it.