disassociation
New York was fun, as expected. But then I went with my family to the Dominican Republic...and it was less than great.
Ever since I got back I've felt like I'm watching TV. Like I'm not actually living, just watching. I've been trying my best to interact and to be present but its not working. Everything seems to be going too fast to keep up with. Not like my mind is going slower than everything around me, just seperate. I've been cut off from life. I just want to live fully. I just want to expierence. I don't know whats happened to me. It's not just personal, emotional or internal. I can feel it in my eyes. I look in the mirror and I don't see me, I see what I think is me. I'm just not sure. Everything around me moves and jumps and spins and never stops for anyone or anything. I can't take it for much longer. I need to find some solid ground. I need to find it soon.
disassociation
n 1: the state of being unconnected in memory or imagination
2: the act of separating or state of being separated
Ever since I got back I've felt like I'm watching TV. Like I'm not actually living, just watching. I've been trying my best to interact and to be present but its not working. Everything seems to be going too fast to keep up with. Not like my mind is going slower than everything around me, just seperate. I've been cut off from life. I just want to live fully. I just want to expierence. I don't know whats happened to me. It's not just personal, emotional or internal. I can feel it in my eyes. I look in the mirror and I don't see me, I see what I think is me. I'm just not sure. Everything around me moves and jumps and spins and never stops for anyone or anything. I can't take it for much longer. I need to find some solid ground. I need to find it soon.
disassociation
n 1: the state of being unconnected in memory or imagination
2: the act of separating or state of being separated