A poem written for me
They push through
the wind resists
they reside
I can't even remember the last time I've cried
Just letting you know
for what I've told you I haven't lied
but now you're floating away like the lowering of the tide
My sand will dry up
crack and blow away
waiting long cold nights until that day
the time that I wish would never end
the time that my beach fills with the tide again
Yeah, I didn't want to let him see what I was feeling when he I read it. It made me so happy on the inside I wanted to cry. It made me realize just what's going on. I leave Friday guys... Friday is only 4 days away. 4 days I have left...
Tears come to my eyes now because of everything. EVERY LITTLE THING. For you all, I'll put it behind an lj-cut as not to fill your friends page with my
I've known you for over two years. We've had shit happen to both of us, but we always came back to one another. And now that we've finally cleared stuff up and have been together... it's like the more I hang out with you the more it hurts. It hurts more because I know what I'm leaving behind. I'm leaving behind basically the only thing that's made me happy.
Okay, I know people move, they make new friends. I'm going to do the same, but I can't let go of this relationship. I've never tried long distance, and personally, I'm scared. I've heard horror stories of how one partner cheated on the other and all this stuff, stuff I don't want happening. There's a ring around my finger, a promise I made to him. A promise that I'd wait till he comes up to where I'm going. I'm going to keep the promise, even if it kills me. I didn't work on this for so long for it to be thrown away.
Leaving everything behind just sucks. Sunset, yes, I hated the school, but it was cool smoking before school, and getting drunk during biology. It was fun eating my spicy cheetos and drinking my pink lemonade every morning. It was fun walking out in the middle of the day. It was fun just being there. Yeah, I'll eventually adapt to this new school, but it's not going to be the same. I've always hated block scheduling, and this school revolves around it. Put it this way guys, piercings are limited to the ear. I'm gonna have a field day with that one...
Change is good sometimes, but I'm not going to go up there without a crying fit. Hell, I want to cry right now but I'm holding it back...
Other than that, I went shopping today. Got myself a pair of asics, two shirts, pair of pants, and some good smelly sprays from victorias secret. I haven't gone shopping for myself like that since...damn, about a year and heif?
Elise
the wind resists
they reside
I can't even remember the last time I've cried
Just letting you know
for what I've told you I haven't lied
but now you're floating away like the lowering of the tide
My sand will dry up
crack and blow away
waiting long cold nights until that day
the time that I wish would never end
the time that my beach fills with the tide again
Yeah, I didn't want to let him see what I was feeling when he I read it. It made me so happy on the inside I wanted to cry. It made me realize just what's going on. I leave Friday guys... Friday is only 4 days away. 4 days I have left...
Tears come to my eyes now because of everything. EVERY LITTLE THING. For you all, I'll put it behind an lj-cut as not to fill your friends page with my
I've known you for over two years. We've had shit happen to both of us, but we always came back to one another. And now that we've finally cleared stuff up and have been together... it's like the more I hang out with you the more it hurts. It hurts more because I know what I'm leaving behind. I'm leaving behind basically the only thing that's made me happy.
Okay, I know people move, they make new friends. I'm going to do the same, but I can't let go of this relationship. I've never tried long distance, and personally, I'm scared. I've heard horror stories of how one partner cheated on the other and all this stuff, stuff I don't want happening. There's a ring around my finger, a promise I made to him. A promise that I'd wait till he comes up to where I'm going. I'm going to keep the promise, even if it kills me. I didn't work on this for so long for it to be thrown away.
Leaving everything behind just sucks. Sunset, yes, I hated the school, but it was cool smoking before school, and getting drunk during biology. It was fun eating my spicy cheetos and drinking my pink lemonade every morning. It was fun walking out in the middle of the day. It was fun just being there. Yeah, I'll eventually adapt to this new school, but it's not going to be the same. I've always hated block scheduling, and this school revolves around it. Put it this way guys, piercings are limited to the ear. I'm gonna have a field day with that one...
Change is good sometimes, but I'm not going to go up there without a crying fit. Hell, I want to cry right now but I'm holding it back...
Other than that, I went shopping today. Got myself a pair of asics, two shirts, pair of pants, and some good smelly sprays from victorias secret. I haven't gone shopping for myself like that since...damn, about a year and heif?
Elise