Ho Ho Ho.
I can't believe Christmas is in two days. It flew at me so quickly once I started my new job. I've been spending a lot of time at my parent's house because my brother is home from California. I haven't seen him since last Christmas. It kind of saddens me that I don't see him more often because I know we could be closer than we are. But what comforts me is knowing that if something ever happened, he'd be there for us, or me. He certainly hasn't changed. I think that comforts me as well. I see him once a year, and every year he looks and acts exactly the same (give or take a few pounds or moustaches).
I was talking to my mom a few days ago about how Christmas changes as you grow older. I don't get excited like I used to. I feel so sedate around Christmas. It's simply feeling comfortable and calm. And of course I get fits of nostalgia. Who doesn't around Christmas? And then I inevitably start thinking about the past year as New Year's approaches. I think about what I did wrong, or things that happened that I don't want to happen again in the new year. I start feeling hopeful about the coming year and pray that life doesn't take any unwelcome, unexpected turns.
I really want to get my teacher's certification in the coming year and start teaching in my own classroom by the 2007-2008 academic year. I would like to move into a place with a yard for the dogs. I would like Jason and I to live closer together so we could see each other more often. Obviously there is a lot that I would like to happen, and I hope that I can gear the things that are in my control to be condusive to all of those things happening. In that sense, I always repeat the Serenity Prayer to myself and truly try to let that guide me.
Am I getting too serious? I feel serious at this moment. I feel reflective. There is so much I want to say, but don't want to say on here. I need to try to open myself up to others and not let so much of what I think and feel just stir deep inside myself. I have so many hopes and wishes that sometimes I feel dragged down by them because I know I'll be disappointed if they don't come to fruition.
Ok, I think I'm done. I just want everyone to know that I am very grateful for my friends and family. More grateful than anyone will ever know. I hope I let you guys know how much I appreciate you. If I don't tell you enough, at least know that I do. But I'll make an effort to let each and every one of my friends know.
I was talking to my mom a few days ago about how Christmas changes as you grow older. I don't get excited like I used to. I feel so sedate around Christmas. It's simply feeling comfortable and calm. And of course I get fits of nostalgia. Who doesn't around Christmas? And then I inevitably start thinking about the past year as New Year's approaches. I think about what I did wrong, or things that happened that I don't want to happen again in the new year. I start feeling hopeful about the coming year and pray that life doesn't take any unwelcome, unexpected turns.
I really want to get my teacher's certification in the coming year and start teaching in my own classroom by the 2007-2008 academic year. I would like to move into a place with a yard for the dogs. I would like Jason and I to live closer together so we could see each other more often. Obviously there is a lot that I would like to happen, and I hope that I can gear the things that are in my control to be condusive to all of those things happening. In that sense, I always repeat the Serenity Prayer to myself and truly try to let that guide me.
Am I getting too serious? I feel serious at this moment. I feel reflective. There is so much I want to say, but don't want to say on here. I need to try to open myself up to others and not let so much of what I think and feel just stir deep inside myself. I have so many hopes and wishes that sometimes I feel dragged down by them because I know I'll be disappointed if they don't come to fruition.
Ok, I think I'm done. I just want everyone to know that I am very grateful for my friends and family. More grateful than anyone will ever know. I hope I let you guys know how much I appreciate you. If I don't tell you enough, at least know that I do. But I'll make an effort to let each and every one of my friends know.