Random thoughts
There has been so much and yet nothing going on. I am officially unemployed for the first time in....... a lot of years. I can't pay for my cobra so I am stockpiling my insulin and hoping that I will get a job soon.
Part of me want's the time off, but I'mnot doing the things I want to do so what's the point.
I have a gym membership yet I've only gone 4 times in 2 months. I keep telling myself it's the harsh heat of summer, but we all know I'm lying.
You ever get the feeling you're being excluded from something but not sure what or by whom? That's me.
I started cleaning the nooks and crannies that I've shoved stuff into and have thrown out tons. But still need to throw out tons more. I am only partially motivated. At least I've got the kitchen clean and am maintaining it.
Speaking of. Cat and I were thinking of doing some good cooking once the heat clears up. Take turns making meals because we only live a few blocks from each other and cooking for one person is so hard. But I have no counter space to speak of and it's impossilbe to prep food here. (oh lookie, an excuse to fail at something)
I've had a hard time this week. Issues with the bank, bills, car, ect ect ect. I hit a wall big time and pretty much broke down and cried. If it weren't for twitter and Linda calling me I would have been worse.
Speaking of Twitter, I've become that person that I hate. I tweet constantly. And really, I'm not that interesting. At least when I tweeted from work I had amusing stories. Now it's just whine whine whine. (can I get some cheese?)
But on the flip side, John Barrowman tweeted back to me last night *squeee*!! Sadly it was because he said he liked the show Jersey Shore. I had to take him to task! He needs to know a real Jersey Girl doesn't act or look like that!
My writing has gone to shit. I can't manage to beta for someone who gave me a fic nearly 2 weeks ago let alone write my own stories. All I have are sentences just thrown here or there.
I went and bought yarn and hooks to try and crochet again. I can't figure out the instructions. The illistration all look the same to me for double 1/2 double and triple. *sigh* yet another fail.
My attention span is nil. I'm currently watching tv, have an open book on the sofa arm, the yarn on the coffee table and I'm over here typing to you as well as having my own story open and the beta open.
Focus damn you FOCUS!