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okay..
so i've learned alot since getting out of high school...
and most of them have to do with friends..
or well....SO CALLED friends.
ANd others have to deal with life in general...just the fact that it's only predictalbe in one way..
IT'S TOTALLY UN PREDICTABLE!
But I guess that that SUMMER freedom feeling was nice..
I had it for like..ONE day!
well...just the days that I was at the beach...
Now..
I work..and then come home..and sleep..and eat..and shower..and work out.
Then..
Weekends..
I'm spending all the time I can with Mike..*which never seems to be enough time*
and then..
It's back to work...
I hate the fact that my LAST summer that I could have had REAL freedom...
I'm working the ENTIRE summer!
Oh well..
I guess that feeling of actually being free..and a teenager left the day I came back from the beach.
But it's sad that it's taken me over a month to realize that it's gone.
My whole childhood/teenage years left in one day!!!
And its sad now that one of my BEST friends in high school refuses to talk to me.
Oh well..
Her loss.
Screw her.
Screw everyone who's stepped on me..and made me feel like a crappy person.
Screw everyone who's ever called me fat.
Screw everyone whos ever called me any names what so ever.
Screw all of you who couldn't accept me for the person that I am!
I'm done.
Enough venting,
so i've learned alot since getting out of high school...
and most of them have to do with friends..
or well....SO CALLED friends.
ANd others have to deal with life in general...just the fact that it's only predictalbe in one way..
IT'S TOTALLY UN PREDICTABLE!
But I guess that that SUMMER freedom feeling was nice..
I had it for like..ONE day!
well...just the days that I was at the beach...
Now..
I work..and then come home..and sleep..and eat..and shower..and work out.
Then..
Weekends..
I'm spending all the time I can with Mike..*which never seems to be enough time*
and then..
It's back to work...
I hate the fact that my LAST summer that I could have had REAL freedom...
I'm working the ENTIRE summer!
Oh well..
I guess that feeling of actually being free..and a teenager left the day I came back from the beach.
But it's sad that it's taken me over a month to realize that it's gone.
My whole childhood/teenage years left in one day!!!
And its sad now that one of my BEST friends in high school refuses to talk to me.
Oh well..
Her loss.
Screw her.
Screw everyone who's stepped on me..and made me feel like a crappy person.
Screw everyone who's ever called me fat.
Screw everyone whos ever called me any names what so ever.
Screw all of you who couldn't accept me for the person that I am!
I'm done.
Enough venting,