welcome to my mind please turn off the lights.....

[emvuluoyvul]

today could either be alright or super good...well right now im very confused about my life and the things ive done and why ive done them...and if i wasnt what i have now or if its not what im looking for ive wanted this for so long and now that i have it i realize its not really what i want because its not that great so far but i guess i should give it a chance nothings really working...nothing has been working for a long time and i feel like ive made the wrong decisions and ive become a bad person or something and i want so many things but i cant have them because its impossible and i just wish that this thing thats bugging me would care about me or show some interest besides saying yea i like you and i want to have a something with you then never seeing them until one day no ones around and its possible....this isnt what i want what do i do......blah

"Would you like to hear my voice sprinkled with emotion? I cant see the end of me."