Been a little while
:(
I thought hanging out with Josh would make me feel better. And now it's making me just remember the past. which makes all matters worse. I just am sitting here and talking to this girl I've met online, and in person a few times, and I'm going to JMU with her this weekend, well... I'm starting to fall for her, and I've talked to her about everything about Chrissy and I, and shes shared with me stories of what happened with ehr and her ex boyfriend, well anyways... She thinks that we shouldn't do anything because it would be false, and we would be thinking of our exs'... hmmmm
Why couldn't I have met her some other time in the future... I'm just oging to get trapped in that "friend hole" and not ever be able to act on it if i wanted to. ho hum....
I wonder if this drama will ever end. I just want to go back to being me, able to do me things, and all the things that include me
(what are they you ask? if i find out i'll tell you)
I'm gonna go try to sleep, which i know i will fail at miserably, ho hum *:00 class tomorow morning... I need more friends, why do i have to be so self enclosed, and never open up to new people. >
I thought hanging out with Josh would make me feel better. And now it's making me just remember the past. which makes all matters worse. I just am sitting here and talking to this girl I've met online, and in person a few times, and I'm going to JMU with her this weekend, well... I'm starting to fall for her, and I've talked to her about everything about Chrissy and I, and shes shared with me stories of what happened with ehr and her ex boyfriend, well anyways... She thinks that we shouldn't do anything because it would be false, and we would be thinking of our exs'... hmmmm
Why couldn't I have met her some other time in the future... I'm just oging to get trapped in that "friend hole" and not ever be able to act on it if i wanted to. ho hum....
I wonder if this drama will ever end. I just want to go back to being me, able to do me things, and all the things that include me
(what are they you ask? if i find out i'll tell you)
I'm gonna go try to sleep, which i know i will fail at miserably, ho hum *:00 class tomorow morning... I need more friends, why do i have to be so self enclosed, and never open up to new people. >