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so.
i've been reading this book. it's call 'the electric kool-aid acid test'. by tom wolfe. it's very good. it sort of makes me want to do acid. ha. i'm not sure if i'm kidding about that yet. i doubt i'd ever do something like that, at least not for a good 5-10 years...but it's an interesting thought. it's amazing to read this book and the way wolfe writes, it's like you're in the book. it's truly one of the best books i've ever read. and i'm not even done it yet. but the thing that i'd like to find out, is can you obtain a truly blissful high, one worthy of the effects of acid or even pot, without it? i think that's what i'm really after. it seems that in this book, acid is so amazing and mind-blowing to kesey and his gang because they don't seem to really know who they really are. they are essentially opening doors in the mind and doing it with acid because they know no other way of doing it. but the true question is...what's the real key to your mind? i think acid and other drugs are really just a copied key...or just mind-smiths. think about it. even with pot, it's basically just loosening you up. that's why it's the almighty escape. but what's it loosening you from? and this is what i've decided. drugs are not keys. they are simply just good criminals that could pry into even the stiffest's of stiff's brains. but they can be helpful. but i think the way to really know yourself, is not becoming a pothead or whatever (though i'm not putting anyone down...do what you got to do in this world). i think the real trick is questioning the reason, the cause, the effect. why do i like drugs? what are they helping me through? what do they show me? why can't i see that without drugs? it's an interesting thought. cause drugs are amazing. but i question their power. because the only power an inanimate object can have, is that which we give it.
so.
i'm going to question my steps.
i've been reading this book. it's call 'the electric kool-aid acid test'. by tom wolfe. it's very good. it sort of makes me want to do acid. ha. i'm not sure if i'm kidding about that yet. i doubt i'd ever do something like that, at least not for a good 5-10 years...but it's an interesting thought. it's amazing to read this book and the way wolfe writes, it's like you're in the book. it's truly one of the best books i've ever read. and i'm not even done it yet. but the thing that i'd like to find out, is can you obtain a truly blissful high, one worthy of the effects of acid or even pot, without it? i think that's what i'm really after. it seems that in this book, acid is so amazing and mind-blowing to kesey and his gang because they don't seem to really know who they really are. they are essentially opening doors in the mind and doing it with acid because they know no other way of doing it. but the true question is...what's the real key to your mind? i think acid and other drugs are really just a copied key...or just mind-smiths. think about it. even with pot, it's basically just loosening you up. that's why it's the almighty escape. but what's it loosening you from? and this is what i've decided. drugs are not keys. they are simply just good criminals that could pry into even the stiffest's of stiff's brains. but they can be helpful. but i think the way to really know yourself, is not becoming a pothead or whatever (though i'm not putting anyone down...do what you got to do in this world). i think the real trick is questioning the reason, the cause, the effect. why do i like drugs? what are they helping me through? what do they show me? why can't i see that without drugs? it's an interesting thought. cause drugs are amazing. but i question their power. because the only power an inanimate object can have, is that which we give it.
so.
i'm going to question my steps.