who knew?
jt and i broke up about a month ago
i have never felt so lost... ever
this is real pain, real wonder, real broken heart. no little playful "i love yous"
these were real
he was real
did ijust fail the biggest test of my life?
was he the one?
did i just end my happiness?
some days i feel horrible, i feel like the biggest loser (and not in the good way)
i feel like i've screwed my life up and that jt was right when he said that i'd never find anyone who'd love me the way he does/did
i hae to hide his stuff just to keep from looking at him
that doesn't mean that i don't wake up in the middle of the night
thinking he's next to me
wanting to curl up next to him
wating to have him hold me
and tell me that it's okay
i saw him tonight, for the first time since we broke up
when he hugged me goodbye, i wanted to kiss him
i wanted to tell him that i was wrong, i was so wrong, and that right there in his arms was where i belonged
but a fish cannot love a bird
i can't settle down now
i can't get married now
i'm not ready
i'm indecisive
i can't do that to him
so here we are, i love jt, i will always love jt, but the truth is he's ready to settle down, and i'm about to go to college
and as perfect as we are, this is it
in 5-6 years jt wants to be married with a kid
in 5-6 years, i'll be out of college, ready to live
he was too good too soon
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone.....
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you
don't love me too
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
goodbye jt
i have never felt so lost... ever
this is real pain, real wonder, real broken heart. no little playful "i love yous"
these were real
he was real
did ijust fail the biggest test of my life?
was he the one?
did i just end my happiness?
some days i feel horrible, i feel like the biggest loser (and not in the good way)
i feel like i've screwed my life up and that jt was right when he said that i'd never find anyone who'd love me the way he does/did
i hae to hide his stuff just to keep from looking at him
that doesn't mean that i don't wake up in the middle of the night
thinking he's next to me
wanting to curl up next to him
wating to have him hold me
and tell me that it's okay
i saw him tonight, for the first time since we broke up
when he hugged me goodbye, i wanted to kiss him
i wanted to tell him that i was wrong, i was so wrong, and that right there in his arms was where i belonged
but a fish cannot love a bird
i can't settle down now
i can't get married now
i'm not ready
i'm indecisive
i can't do that to him
so here we are, i love jt, i will always love jt, but the truth is he's ready to settle down, and i'm about to go to college
and as perfect as we are, this is it
in 5-6 years jt wants to be married with a kid
in 5-6 years, i'll be out of college, ready to live
he was too good too soon
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone.....
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you
don't love me too
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
goodbye jt