if you're not interested in a good bitching, don't read this
so my life is not gray, but it's black and white
HONESTLY
daniel and i are so iffy it's like walking on eggshells with clown shoes one there is no way around this awkwardness,he couldn't give a flying fuck about me and when i'm around him, all i wanna do is just wrap my arms around him and just have him hold me until hell freezes over
ridge, man i need to get that kid out of my head before i just flat out DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE,
excuse me while i go wash my clear pore mask off
cough cough i'm back and my face burns, oh JOY
so where was i?
ahh yes, one of my favorite topics, ridge there's just no way to convey to anyone how much i care for this kid. heh just makes me want to change everything about me to be perfect, but... hehasagirlfriendwhohereallycaresaboutsoi'moutofthepicture
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oh woe is me, there's not just one guy who live far away who has a girlfriend that i seem to have found a strange fondness for, oh no, there's two. ryan. oh man oh man, i don't think anyone know's how much i don't want to like this kid. i just don't want to have feelings for him, but i do. i can't stop thinking about him, i feel like a child. he has a girlfriend who i'm friends with, numero uno reason to not give a damn about him, reason numero dos, from what i've heard, he's prone to cheating. not my thing AT ALL,
but then again, what is my thing?
so i totally hate waking up in the morning i look in the mirror and think "hello ugly". and i feel that way all day long. i've started taking cycling classes 2 times a week on top of going to the gym when i can and taking physical conditioning II. i dunno, i just HATE the way i look with a passion, i just wanna, GAH, i dunno, someone turn my skin into plastic and mold me
okay, so yeah, my grandpa is in the hospital cuz on top of having emphysema, he got the pneumonia and we don't know if he'll be okay this time
i don't know, but CSI is on now, so i'm gonna go watch it and eat something chocolate, cuz i worked my butt off today
HONESTLY
daniel and i are so iffy it's like walking on eggshells with clown shoes one there is no way around this awkwardness,he couldn't give a flying fuck about me and when i'm around him, all i wanna do is just wrap my arms around him and just have him hold me until hell freezes over
ridge, man i need to get that kid out of my head before i just flat out DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE,
excuse me while i go wash my clear pore mask off
cough cough i'm back and my face burns, oh JOY
so where was i?
ahh yes, one of my favorite topics, ridge there's just no way to convey to anyone how much i care for this kid. heh just makes me want to change everything about me to be perfect, but... hehasagirlfriendwhohereallycaresaboutsoi'moutofthepicture
next topic
oh woe is me, there's not just one guy who live far away who has a girlfriend that i seem to have found a strange fondness for, oh no, there's two. ryan. oh man oh man, i don't think anyone know's how much i don't want to like this kid. i just don't want to have feelings for him, but i do. i can't stop thinking about him, i feel like a child. he has a girlfriend who i'm friends with, numero uno reason to not give a damn about him, reason numero dos, from what i've heard, he's prone to cheating. not my thing AT ALL,
but then again, what is my thing?
so i totally hate waking up in the morning i look in the mirror and think "hello ugly". and i feel that way all day long. i've started taking cycling classes 2 times a week on top of going to the gym when i can and taking physical conditioning II. i dunno, i just HATE the way i look with a passion, i just wanna, GAH, i dunno, someone turn my skin into plastic and mold me
okay, so yeah, my grandpa is in the hospital cuz on top of having emphysema, he got the pneumonia and we don't know if he'll be okay this time
i don't know, but CSI is on now, so i'm gonna go watch it and eat something chocolate, cuz i worked my butt off today