Mission Accomplished?
Today I experienced a first which i kind of wish didn't happen. I mean nothing bad happened but i kind of have a gross feeling going on.
So those that know me know that for the last half a year or so i have taken on a new mission. Mission Health/Girliness. When my health crashed last year I ended up giving up a lot to try and get my health back in order, but for some reason i ended up making over my life a bit. Im trying to be a bit less altruistic and take care of myself mind and body. this includes dressing a bit better and letting myself be more open and girly in a sense. Its been a gradual process just as treating myself medically has be a slow and tiring process.
So now for my new experience:
I've always heard of my friends getting harassed and talked to by unwanted guys on the street, but never before has it happened to me... until tonight.. I was walking on my way home from nil_chi_tsosies and on the phone. and i passed this guy while walking down the sketchy alley. haha maatim... and i was on the phone and wasnt paying attention so when he said something i turned and said something back. When I half realized his intention I answered once again. stupidly and then when i wouldn't answer again he started saying mean things so i sped up and walked away quickly. He didn't follow me, but I was really tempted to turn around and kick his butt. But he didn't look altogether non threatening and considering my fragile joint state I figured as long as he doesn't follow me ill be okay.
BUT SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!! Since when am I girly enough to be harassed by guys? AND i actually feel pretty gross like i want to shower at the moment, but i guess its dark so it doesn't matter, but seriously. Punching his lights out would have been quite satisfying! I don't think this is what i wanted from being more feminine. Hm next mission be a bit girly while retaining the don't even think about it vibe that was working so well for me for the last 22 years.
Good Night.
Oh and avatar was really cool minus the gore. Nil_chi_tsosie and I were screaming out loud in the theater. good thing the sound was really loud. I wonder if others were also screaming? It also took half of the movie for my eyes to adjust to the 3D glasses.
So those that know me know that for the last half a year or so i have taken on a new mission. Mission Health/Girliness. When my health crashed last year I ended up giving up a lot to try and get my health back in order, but for some reason i ended up making over my life a bit. Im trying to be a bit less altruistic and take care of myself mind and body. this includes dressing a bit better and letting myself be more open and girly in a sense. Its been a gradual process just as treating myself medically has be a slow and tiring process.
So now for my new experience:
I've always heard of my friends getting harassed and talked to by unwanted guys on the street, but never before has it happened to me... until tonight.. I was walking on my way home from nil_chi_tsosies and on the phone. and i passed this guy while walking down the sketchy alley. haha maatim... and i was on the phone and wasnt paying attention so when he said something i turned and said something back. When I half realized his intention I answered once again. stupidly and then when i wouldn't answer again he started saying mean things so i sped up and walked away quickly. He didn't follow me, but I was really tempted to turn around and kick his butt. But he didn't look altogether non threatening and considering my fragile joint state I figured as long as he doesn't follow me ill be okay.
BUT SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!! Since when am I girly enough to be harassed by guys? AND i actually feel pretty gross like i want to shower at the moment, but i guess its dark so it doesn't matter, but seriously. Punching his lights out would have been quite satisfying! I don't think this is what i wanted from being more feminine. Hm next mission be a bit girly while retaining the don't even think about it vibe that was working so well for me for the last 22 years.
Good Night.
Oh and avatar was really cool minus the gore. Nil_chi_tsosie and I were screaming out loud in the theater. good thing the sound was really loud. I wonder if others were also screaming? It also took half of the movie for my eyes to adjust to the 3D glasses.