tiny update
It's nice to have some of my confidence back. I think in college I lost a lot of it, and that in turn made me an apathetic unmotivated mess. It really screwed me up and I spent 4 years of my life in a daze. Leaving Bluesboro last year and spending the better part of my summer PAYING to work my ass off 12 hours a day really cleared my head. Sure, it took a long while to get in a stable sense of mind, but now that I am there I am OK with where I am for now. I have a feeling, if the powers that be play out right, I won't be here for long. But I won't get my hopes up. If that's one thing I've learned in my 20s, it's not to hope and wish for something for too long. I am taking life as it comes from now on. I do know I will eventually go back to further my education, but that is all that is absolute at this point in my life.
Went to the doctor for a physical for the first time in a long time. Every test under the sun was performed. I know I am perfectly healthy but I am still anxiously awaiting the results of all the blood work, etc. I also have to go for an Echocardiogram, because I've had some sharp pains in my chest and even though the EKG was fine, and the pains can probably just be attributed to stress, my doctor wants to be sure nothing is wrong. Especially since my grandfather on my mom's side died at an early age of a heartattack and my dad just had a small heartattack at age 54 last year. So scary. She also mentioned lapband surgery. I was really surprised that she threw that out there, of course it makes sense because I have about 150 pounds to lose to be at the high end of my "healthy weight" I did start the weight management workshop at Vanderbilt this month. It's a 4 month program, which hopefully will put me on the right track, then I can start thinking about if I want to go the surgery route. It's definitely something I have to think more about, of course my mom is very supportive of it.
I feel like I haven't done much this summer since I've only taken small weekend trips as to not take a bunch of time off work. I went to San Francisco in May, along with the Lake for Memorial Day weekend. The lake again for 5 days 4th of July - the whole fam was down then, so fun. At the end of the month Traci and I want to go to Charlotte to see Avenue Q. And I am going to Chicago the weekend of Aug 8th for the Cards/Cubs series. That will for sure be crazy. I'd really like to go to NYC for Labor Day weekend, but I doubt the money flow will be able to swing that. So I won't be able to see Rent on b'way before it ends...it's kind of sad, but I'm not stressing too much since I still think this past tour cast was the bees knees.
Some pretty good shows coming up this week, into the fall..hit the lights is monday. Idina Menzel is Thurs (which by the way I dont even have her album so i should probably download that to preview a bit of it). NFG is coming through Nashville and Birmingham, so I'll be hitting that up as well in the fall. I missed warped in Atlanta b/c of work obligations and I doubt I can make it to Cincy at the end of the month if I go to Charlotte, so I might miss it for the first time in 7 years...so sad...is this growing up?
Went to the doctor for a physical for the first time in a long time. Every test under the sun was performed. I know I am perfectly healthy but I am still anxiously awaiting the results of all the blood work, etc. I also have to go for an Echocardiogram, because I've had some sharp pains in my chest and even though the EKG was fine, and the pains can probably just be attributed to stress, my doctor wants to be sure nothing is wrong. Especially since my grandfather on my mom's side died at an early age of a heartattack and my dad just had a small heartattack at age 54 last year. So scary. She also mentioned lapband surgery. I was really surprised that she threw that out there, of course it makes sense because I have about 150 pounds to lose to be at the high end of my "healthy weight" I did start the weight management workshop at Vanderbilt this month. It's a 4 month program, which hopefully will put me on the right track, then I can start thinking about if I want to go the surgery route. It's definitely something I have to think more about, of course my mom is very supportive of it.
I feel like I haven't done much this summer since I've only taken small weekend trips as to not take a bunch of time off work. I went to San Francisco in May, along with the Lake for Memorial Day weekend. The lake again for 5 days 4th of July - the whole fam was down then, so fun. At the end of the month Traci and I want to go to Charlotte to see Avenue Q. And I am going to Chicago the weekend of Aug 8th for the Cards/Cubs series. That will for sure be crazy. I'd really like to go to NYC for Labor Day weekend, but I doubt the money flow will be able to swing that. So I won't be able to see Rent on b'way before it ends...it's kind of sad, but I'm not stressing too much since I still think this past tour cast was the bees knees.
Some pretty good shows coming up this week, into the fall..hit the lights is monday. Idina Menzel is Thurs (which by the way I dont even have her album so i should probably download that to preview a bit of it). NFG is coming through Nashville and Birmingham, so I'll be hitting that up as well in the fall. I missed warped in Atlanta b/c of work obligations and I doubt I can make it to Cincy at the end of the month if I go to Charlotte, so I might miss it for the first time in 7 years...so sad...is this growing up?