wooooah...im an idiot.

[emtions_at_stir]

so i broke up with josh last night.
I don't really know why.
I hurt the only person that has actually truely cared about me.
only because i am scared, how selfish is that?
i told myself i'd be fine..but im not.
all i can do is cry..and i feel sick to my stomache.
every little thing reminds me of him..
he called this morning...but i didnt answer.
i got a voicemail...i should have smiled like it usually does when he calls me before he goes into work...instead i cried.
i went for a walk to try to clear my mind...and i knew it was could because i could see every breath i took, but for some reason, it was like i couldn't even feel it.
now where do i go from here?....