Lost In Thought
Today has been interesting thus far not too much has happened I woke up this morning and I realized that my dad was still laying in bed asleep I didnt want to disturb him I figured that he had been up most of the night so I went back to my room for a while and I fell back asleep when I woke up it was about 8:30 I got up and my dad still wasnt up so I went back to my room and rolled around on my big ass waterbed for about an hour and a half before I decided to get up at 10 to go work out on my own up at our small gym here at the complex I stayed up their for an hour this morning rode the bike 25 miles a new personal best for me which I was happy about when I came home at 11 my dad was awake and he told me that my granddad was waiting for me up at my great grandmoms house I told him last night that I would probably come up to help him out plus my little brother had to mow the lawn for my great grandmom today...I came home and took a shower after cutting myself to ribbons with all the tree limbs and stuff but their just really small scratches so its not bad but what stands out most at the moment would have to be myself I am physically tired my body is worn out for the day and it seems like my mind has picked up the extra load and its workin over time Ive found myself lost in thought a couple times now and its been about everything almost I mean its not like ive been focused on one thing in particular my mind has just been going at 100 miles a minute Ive thought about everything from school to the woman I love to her so called friends at one point at time and thats where I got extraordinarily lost in thought I read some of their older journals when they were still friends and it amazes me how someone can be so two faced about a subject like friendship I mean a true friend never leaves no matter what happens whether its a lie or whether they got hurt bad a friend never leaves if the person leaves than they are not truly a friend their are two people that ive known for a long time now a really long time close to a decade which is about half my life and im truly in love with one of them and the other one well hes just a really really good friend and I know no matter what happens they will always be my friends which brings me back to the conclusion that these people who were so called friends were never friends and the fact that they continue hurting their once so called friend is absolutely horrible one of them had the audasity to call refer to her as "it" not even recognizing her as a human being is one of the lowest things that anyone I think could do. this person once her so called friend now a bitter enemy I think one of the best things that could be said about this is "with friends like those who needs enemies"