ah crap
ok so i am incredibly stressed and what do i do.....i write a post!
i am so sick of death. I know it is a part of life and the people i am missing right now had been suffering a lot of pain, but it still just doesnt seam fair. the most optimistic person i know who lived 19 incredible years to the absolute fullest, compared to so many who live well into their 90s just passing time. Reid actually IMPROVED the life of everyone around him. god i feel like i didnt even hang out with him much, but still looked up to him.
And then theres my yaya...yeah she smoked too much, yeah she was overweight, and yeah she ate ridiculously unhealthy Greak food all the time...but she was one of the happiest people you could imagine. After 3 and a half years of cancer and loosing more than half her body weight...she still could down a cheeseburger with all the fixings and some fries, as well as give me strict instructions to take care of my mother.
Then in the midst of not being able to think clearly, add on another fund raiser, graduation to plan, tennis matches and rescheduling, this peer helper wellness day thing ALL day saturday, this interview for the big paper, 32 scholarship applications, and then tests and essays for school...and the most ridiculous system of "rewarding" or "honoring" people.
so...to all of you underclassmen...dont bother taking ap classes, or even honors for that matter. i know i may not have tried hard in my one ap but honors in 99% of everything else isnt even good enough anymore.
I AM SO READY TO BE DONE AND GET TO DELAWARE ASAP!!!
(this is officially the first time i am not looking forward to summer..from realizing that the 55hr. work weeks last summer isnt going to be enough this time)
i am so sick of death. I know it is a part of life and the people i am missing right now had been suffering a lot of pain, but it still just doesnt seam fair. the most optimistic person i know who lived 19 incredible years to the absolute fullest, compared to so many who live well into their 90s just passing time. Reid actually IMPROVED the life of everyone around him. god i feel like i didnt even hang out with him much, but still looked up to him.
And then theres my yaya...yeah she smoked too much, yeah she was overweight, and yeah she ate ridiculously unhealthy Greak food all the time...but she was one of the happiest people you could imagine. After 3 and a half years of cancer and loosing more than half her body weight...she still could down a cheeseburger with all the fixings and some fries, as well as give me strict instructions to take care of my mother.
Then in the midst of not being able to think clearly, add on another fund raiser, graduation to plan, tennis matches and rescheduling, this peer helper wellness day thing ALL day saturday, this interview for the big paper, 32 scholarship applications, and then tests and essays for school...and the most ridiculous system of "rewarding" or "honoring" people.
so...to all of you underclassmen...dont bother taking ap classes, or even honors for that matter. i know i may not have tried hard in my one ap but honors in 99% of everything else isnt even good enough anymore.
I AM SO READY TO BE DONE AND GET TO DELAWARE ASAP!!!
(this is officially the first time i am not looking forward to summer..from realizing that the 55hr. work weeks last summer isnt going to be enough this time)