Hmmm
Why is it that when you most want something it suddenly seems you have lost it completely? And then as soon as you get it back in your hands it isn't quite as desirable, or you realize that maybe you really shouldn't have fought that hard for something that everyone was telling you to let go? But you just couldn't let it go b/c its all you have known for so long, and you can't even imagine life without it??? Was it your only chance to be "free" so to speak? Did you just prolong the heartache that seems at this moment to be inevitable?? Then you of course have to second guess everything you just fought for, cried over, practically begged for... was it worth the tears, the heartache, the painful reunitement that hurt so much?? And once you figure out the answer will it be something you want to hear? Or something else for you to just push away and ignore b/c its not what you want, and it doesn't fit into your plans???