i don't know whats going on anymore
ok so everyone is pissed off at me. now i'm just a stupid girl with stupid drama. and honestly...maybe that is all i am. i don't know how to friggen control my emotions anymore. when i was home i always had my girls as my safely blanket....here....i'm pretty much on my own. all i really wanted from him was to be cared about. even though of course i didn't say that...i said i wanted no strings attached. thats just how i am. and now i feel like no one really knows who i actually am because i've been freaking out for the past month and a half. and rachel doesn't seem to care a whole lot. i haven't heard from her. apparently i'm the only one that jumped to conclusions yesterday even though both rachel and pg apologized for her. i don't know what to do now. i've been really hurt thought out this whole situation but it doesn't really seem to matter. people still have mean away messages up and are still not talking to me. i've said sorry. there's not really a whole lot more that i can do.