"you think i'm freaking" "yes i do, listen to yourself"
you know it seems like no matter what i do its never right. i don't even know why i still have this thing. its like the place that i write all the crap that i don't want everyone to see. no one i know even reads these i guess. i hope.
I'M IN A FUNK. a BIG funk. and it seems like even though i have so much going on inside me when i try to get any of it out...it just WON'T! i'm emotionally constipated. so i decided to come to boston...follow my dream. well at least i think this is my dream. its the only thing i've ever dreamed...but i don't know if that means its right. now that i'm here i don't want to be. last semester was a train reck and i came back because i got on anti depression pills and i saw a therapist and supposedly everything is better...kinda. well now i'm here again and i'm no where near as depressed as i was last semester and i love all my classes but still...i don't want to be here. i don't want to be anywhere. i won't be happy anywhere. SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! this isnt even worth writing about. i need to get a psychologist. i need someone to try and figure out all this crazy. there is so much i want to do and i'm screwing it up because....I DON'T KNOW! i just do
I'M IN A FUNK. a BIG funk. and it seems like even though i have so much going on inside me when i try to get any of it out...it just WON'T! i'm emotionally constipated. so i decided to come to boston...follow my dream. well at least i think this is my dream. its the only thing i've ever dreamed...but i don't know if that means its right. now that i'm here i don't want to be. last semester was a train reck and i came back because i got on anti depression pills and i saw a therapist and supposedly everything is better...kinda. well now i'm here again and i'm no where near as depressed as i was last semester and i love all my classes but still...i don't want to be here. i don't want to be anywhere. i won't be happy anywhere. SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! this isnt even worth writing about. i need to get a psychologist. i need someone to try and figure out all this crazy. there is so much i want to do and i'm screwing it up because....I DON'T KNOW! i just do