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There are fantastic lessons in every moment
tonight i learned a lot about myself, about who i am becoming, who i want to be
I felt odd looking at my old boxing gloves; usually when i see something that was important in my past i get nostalgic,
tonight i got excited, i thought about the fight, how much i miss the taste of blood, sweat burning my eyes, my body screaming in pain, and still driving those roundhouse kicks into my reflection
i think its been a blessing for me to have a slight fall from grace ma community wise, it taught me whats important in all of it...
i dont fight to impress my friends or family, i fight because i want to
i fight because its inside me i think
2 parts
OLD me
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part of me was baptised in blood, and now that is my sanctuary...
pain is my house of worship, i am constructing a new god following a satanic lifestyle maybe?
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post taijutsu me
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I want to live as much as i can before i die, i want to taste the spectrum of colors
there is no truth but perception, no law but nature
look to mother earth to protect and guide
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blah blah i think the point is made though, im sorta a hippy? lol
i was thinking about researching more on aryuvedic medicinal theories, local herbalism, etc.
this thought stemmed from me pondering if i could hunt at work. i think the thrill of hunting down and killing something is probably closely linked to martial arts to me, however id feel bad for killing an innocent animal, where as i wouldnt feel so bad killing a human being. So i came to the conclusion that i couldnt hunt, and how lately ive been eating less and less meat....and i feel better physically?
Part of me then remembered hunting for gensing or other herbs with my father in the mountains growing up, and there it hit me. Im really natural medicine and all that hoojazz, i love nature, i want to get out in it (like on my pig hunt) theres something beautiful about nature at its heart
sweet taijutsu, let me see
theres a chance i could go to japan and live and train in taijutsu.....live and train....live and train....
...and come home to appalachia to hunt medicinal herbs...
something about that feels better, and right
i feel better now
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sith was good, acting was bad, go figure
it was a bit...graphic lol
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tonight i learned a lot about myself, about who i am becoming, who i want to be
I felt odd looking at my old boxing gloves; usually when i see something that was important in my past i get nostalgic,
tonight i got excited, i thought about the fight, how much i miss the taste of blood, sweat burning my eyes, my body screaming in pain, and still driving those roundhouse kicks into my reflection
i think its been a blessing for me to have a slight fall from grace ma community wise, it taught me whats important in all of it...
i dont fight to impress my friends or family, i fight because i want to
i fight because its inside me i think
2 parts
OLD me
-
part of me was baptised in blood, and now that is my sanctuary...
pain is my house of worship, i am constructing a new god following a satanic lifestyle maybe?
-
post taijutsu me
-
I want to live as much as i can before i die, i want to taste the spectrum of colors
there is no truth but perception, no law but nature
look to mother earth to protect and guide
-
blah blah i think the point is made though, im sorta a hippy? lol
i was thinking about researching more on aryuvedic medicinal theories, local herbalism, etc.
this thought stemmed from me pondering if i could hunt at work. i think the thrill of hunting down and killing something is probably closely linked to martial arts to me, however id feel bad for killing an innocent animal, where as i wouldnt feel so bad killing a human being. So i came to the conclusion that i couldnt hunt, and how lately ive been eating less and less meat....and i feel better physically?
Part of me then remembered hunting for gensing or other herbs with my father in the mountains growing up, and there it hit me. Im really natural medicine and all that hoojazz, i love nature, i want to get out in it (like on my pig hunt) theres something beautiful about nature at its heart
sweet taijutsu, let me see
theres a chance i could go to japan and live and train in taijutsu.....live and train....live and train....
...and come home to appalachia to hunt medicinal herbs...
something about that feels better, and right
i feel better now
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sith was good, acting was bad, go figure
it was a bit...graphic lol
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