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This is my life:
Monday: Lacrosse practice
Tuesday: Lacrosse practice
Wednesday: Lacrosse practice
Thursday: Lacrosse game
Friday: No lacrosse
Saturday: Lacrosse Car wash, Ref Lacrosse
Sunday: Lacrosse practice
Monday: Lacrosse practice
Tuesday: City Championship Lacrosse
Woo. I don’t mind though. My body is tired. My legs are tired. My mind is tired. But after so long I can’t stop. I feel like I could go on forever. And holy shit.
If another person bitches to me about project prom I think I may rip their head off.
a. I have no choice or say in what time we leave so why bitch at me?
b. I’m haunted by the st. Andrews game and the poor playing done by those who went to prom (not that that game was their fault at all -- they just didn't play their usual fabulous way)
c. I could never ever live with the thought that we may lose bc I was too concerned with how long I was at project prom.
d. I want to win state so badly I don’t really care about project prom at all.
So really I don’t want to hear about it. Especially if you are so stuck on not leaving at all or not leaving utnil 4 -- just don’t tell me. I don’t want to hear it. I don't care if you never get a lot of sleep anyways, or if you don't start. This team relies way to heavily on its seniors and if we lose I will blame no one but ourselves. And that will kill me. Killlllllllll me.
When I grow up I’m not going to look back and think fondly about how awesome project prom was. Hell no. I want to grow up and look back and be like damn we won state 3 times. that’s what I want to remember. And that’s what I will remember whether we win or lose.
i guess for me i cannot even comprehend this major importance about project prom. at all. sigh. but i could never tell my best friends that. talk about ridiculed. they would just think i'm some hard core suck up or something. but no. i'm sick and tired of being embarresed about my passion. i shouldn't have to be. I shouldn't be afraid that somesones going to be like "god shes so obsessed, shes so stupid, blah blah blah" . At least i have some freaking thing to be passionate about. At least i have freaking passion! How could you do something w/o passion!?!?! It doesn't even make sense to me. Just like why people are so pissed about having to leave project prom so early because we have state.
damn.. i didn't mean to ramble this much. ohwell. I've had a lot on my mind lately -- so much gay drama.
ooo i get to sleep in tomorrow!!!!!! yay!
xoxoxoxoxo