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today was horrible. i found this from alison off my old site. sssscheck it.
It's almost pathetic that I find myself thinking about the "what ifs" in my life, I'm always overanalyzing things. it makes me think what if I did this. Or what would have happened if I would have said that. I just can't help but think that if I would have objected to some things, that my relationships with people would be different. I can't help but think that if I would have said what I actually felt, that things wouldnt be the way they are now. It's hard to go on like that, knowing that you have so much more to say, but you feel like you can't say it because you're afraid of rejection or you're just too scared to say anything. I feel like Im happy with my life right now, but so much more could be better. But whose life couldn't be? I shouldn't complain about anything because I know that so many people that I love have it much harder than me right now. Im really sorry for anything that I have said or done to hurt anyones feelings in my life. I hate causing drama, and I don't like to argue with people. Im sorry for ever talking into things too much, or not ever saying what needs to be said. Im sorry for being too clingy, because I know that I can be. And I'm sorry if I cared too much, or if it seemed like I didn't care enough. I am trying to be content with my life and just be happy with what I have.
But enough of me. i'm going to play piano before i go to bed.
Hope everyone has a nice week. i LOVE all of you so much.
It's almost pathetic that I find myself thinking about the "what ifs" in my life, I'm always overanalyzing things. it makes me think what if I did this. Or what would have happened if I would have said that. I just can't help but think that if I would have objected to some things, that my relationships with people would be different. I can't help but think that if I would have said what I actually felt, that things wouldnt be the way they are now. It's hard to go on like that, knowing that you have so much more to say, but you feel like you can't say it because you're afraid of rejection or you're just too scared to say anything. I feel like Im happy with my life right now, but so much more could be better. But whose life couldn't be? I shouldn't complain about anything because I know that so many people that I love have it much harder than me right now. Im really sorry for anything that I have said or done to hurt anyones feelings in my life. I hate causing drama, and I don't like to argue with people. Im sorry for ever talking into things too much, or not ever saying what needs to be said. Im sorry for being too clingy, because I know that I can be. And I'm sorry if I cared too much, or if it seemed like I didn't care enough. I am trying to be content with my life and just be happy with what I have.
But enough of me. i'm going to play piano before i go to bed.
Hope everyone has a nice week. i LOVE all of you so much.