Love in the time of exams
As a general rule, love sucks. There's really no way around it and well, going through it isn't always the most fun experience. I am taking a break from studying right now. I've been doing it for 6 hours today already. And I did it for 14 yesterday. Law school exams are the things dreams are made of. The kind of dreams where you wake up screaming in a cold sweat. I have my criminal law exam tomorrow and I'm hoping for a C. I would be happy with a C. I would put it on the fridge and admire it.
Law school makes me feel dumb and love makes me feel dumb and dating makes me feel dumber. At least I know I'm kind of smart, since they let me into law school, I will never figure out love and dating. First there was Karl, then a guy named Jon, and now I'm kind of seeing this guy Ryan. I like to be hopeful when it comes to all this but I'm far less trusting now than I was 4 months ago and that makes me a little sad. But as we all know, I'm a get back on the horse kind of gal. And I don't need a relationship. I hang out with my friend James a lot and he's fun so I don't think about dating...and no, James and I will NEVER date. We're very bad influences on each other, because we drink too much.
But back to this law school thing. It sucks. A lot. And it makes you feel dumb and wrong all the time. But it's only three years...thank christ for small favors. In other news, Tom contacted me last night to apologize for his behavior this summer. Apparently we were pretty serious, who knew? Anyway, I don't know what his motive are or why he apologized (or why he did it in the first place) but he did and that's that. I'll never trust him again though, once you lose my trust I don't do second chances. No hard feelings though, I was over it real quickly, I just thought it was lame.
An old friend has been on my mind a lot lately. I miss him and I wish things were different, because I think life would be pretty amazing if things were different. But they're not, so no use dwelling on that.
I'm almost done with all my christmas shopping and after this crim exam, I think life will get a little more mellow, just how I like it. ::sigh:: back to studying.
Law school makes me feel dumb and love makes me feel dumb and dating makes me feel dumber. At least I know I'm kind of smart, since they let me into law school, I will never figure out love and dating. First there was Karl, then a guy named Jon, and now I'm kind of seeing this guy Ryan. I like to be hopeful when it comes to all this but I'm far less trusting now than I was 4 months ago and that makes me a little sad. But as we all know, I'm a get back on the horse kind of gal. And I don't need a relationship. I hang out with my friend James a lot and he's fun so I don't think about dating...and no, James and I will NEVER date. We're very bad influences on each other, because we drink too much.
But back to this law school thing. It sucks. A lot. And it makes you feel dumb and wrong all the time. But it's only three years...thank christ for small favors. In other news, Tom contacted me last night to apologize for his behavior this summer. Apparently we were pretty serious, who knew? Anyway, I don't know what his motive are or why he apologized (or why he did it in the first place) but he did and that's that. I'll never trust him again though, once you lose my trust I don't do second chances. No hard feelings though, I was over it real quickly, I just thought it was lame.
An old friend has been on my mind a lot lately. I miss him and I wish things were different, because I think life would be pretty amazing if things were different. But they're not, so no use dwelling on that.
I'm almost done with all my christmas shopping and after this crim exam, I think life will get a little more mellow, just how I like it. ::sigh:: back to studying.