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Let's see. I screamed at my family for being unsupportive. And then proceeded to be spiteful twds finn's daddy. I don't see how either helped.
This rain makes me 400x more irritable and miserable.
I eat too much and sleep too little. I drink too much. And smoke too much. I carved a pretty gash into my skin and don't remember doing it. I refuse to acknowledge the aches and pains. i'm punishing my body for not growing Finn like it was supposed to.
I didn't drink or smoke or take medication. I ate healthy foods and took my pre-natal vitamins. I got sleep. I sang to him. I made plans for all the things we were going to do. I loved him more than anything. And my body still didn't do what it was supposed to do. So now i'm going to destroy it.
Too hard. Out of strength. Fought my entire life. And now i'm done doing that.
Project Mayhem. It's a go.
Like 3 of you will get this:
She shouts the most incessant, the most deplete
She says kill the conscience with nothing to eat
She says kill the worm
Let's sober up
Kill the worm
With the [incoherant nonsense, possibly "feeling"] of the burn
And so we burn.
Still not my fave song on that CD
I just shocked myself with a live wire. I wasn't even paying attention. I never pay attention anymore.
This rain makes me 400x more irritable and miserable.
I eat too much and sleep too little. I drink too much. And smoke too much. I carved a pretty gash into my skin and don't remember doing it. I refuse to acknowledge the aches and pains. i'm punishing my body for not growing Finn like it was supposed to.
I didn't drink or smoke or take medication. I ate healthy foods and took my pre-natal vitamins. I got sleep. I sang to him. I made plans for all the things we were going to do. I loved him more than anything. And my body still didn't do what it was supposed to do. So now i'm going to destroy it.
Too hard. Out of strength. Fought my entire life. And now i'm done doing that.
Project Mayhem. It's a go.
Like 3 of you will get this:
She shouts the most incessant, the most deplete
She says kill the conscience with nothing to eat
She says kill the worm
Let's sober up
Kill the worm
With the [incoherant nonsense, possibly "feeling"] of the burn
And so we burn.
Still not my fave song on that CD
I just shocked myself with a live wire. I wasn't even paying attention. I never pay attention anymore.