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So let's see. I don't usually update this thing very much so I thought i'd do that.
I decided it was in my best interest to cut ties with GCW. I was tired of the lies. For every person who tells me what i'm hearing has never been said, I have three people who can say it has. I find it very hard to believe that all these people can look me in the eyes and say "this is what I heard..." and it has never been said. I just don't think that many people are going to make up the same lie. They had to have heard it from someone else. Unfortunately, all of this has caused problems in some of my friendships. If we've been friends forever and you're going to stand by someone you've known for a short time who is helping to spread these flat out LIES about me, I have a problem with that. So i've had to end some very important friendships. I didn't want to but i'm only going to put up with so much. If you can't even pretend that what they did was maybe a little wrong, you're worthless to me.
Now i'm hearing that Dan is "concerned" that I might "become associated with THOSE people" i.e., Full Throttle.
And yes, I am. I have every intention of helping them in anyway they need me to because THEY have treated me with kindness and respect and THEY are not using me. THEY appreciate me.
That's all I really want. I just want to be appreciated for hard work. And you know, now that I think about it, the whole lies bullshit started around the time I stopped letting Dan use me for free.
i'm also taking pics of a couple of AWE guys when scheduling permits.
Incidently, the same people who are talking shit about me are the same people talking shit about AWE. I have those dudes' backs. That is one hard-working, talents group of dudes who do things right. I have so much respect for them.
Do not misunderstand. They are some wonderful people involved with GCW. Not many but a handful of people that I truly care about. However, it's not my fault that they are oblivious to the storm that's coming. And I hate to say this but they'll be stupid enough to sink with the ship.
In other news, I have never before had such a plethora of men to choose from. Guys I haven't talked to in ages are coming around again. Guys i've been trying to get rid of won't go away. They all want to come over. The sad thing is that the one guy I want doesn't want me so i've been turning people down because they're not him. Which I know is ridiculous. But i'm just very frustrated.
Then I decided that some of these dudes will enable me to cross some stuff off the list. So I may be changing my mind soon.
So I found some pics of Gavin recently. Which is both wonderful and terrible.
My family is in FL. And I am working. I hate my life.
Boooooo.
I decided it was in my best interest to cut ties with GCW. I was tired of the lies. For every person who tells me what i'm hearing has never been said, I have three people who can say it has. I find it very hard to believe that all these people can look me in the eyes and say "this is what I heard..." and it has never been said. I just don't think that many people are going to make up the same lie. They had to have heard it from someone else. Unfortunately, all of this has caused problems in some of my friendships. If we've been friends forever and you're going to stand by someone you've known for a short time who is helping to spread these flat out LIES about me, I have a problem with that. So i've had to end some very important friendships. I didn't want to but i'm only going to put up with so much. If you can't even pretend that what they did was maybe a little wrong, you're worthless to me.
Now i'm hearing that Dan is "concerned" that I might "become associated with THOSE people" i.e., Full Throttle.
And yes, I am. I have every intention of helping them in anyway they need me to because THEY have treated me with kindness and respect and THEY are not using me. THEY appreciate me.
That's all I really want. I just want to be appreciated for hard work. And you know, now that I think about it, the whole lies bullshit started around the time I stopped letting Dan use me for free.
i'm also taking pics of a couple of AWE guys when scheduling permits.
Incidently, the same people who are talking shit about me are the same people talking shit about AWE. I have those dudes' backs. That is one hard-working, talents group of dudes who do things right. I have so much respect for them.
Do not misunderstand. They are some wonderful people involved with GCW. Not many but a handful of people that I truly care about. However, it's not my fault that they are oblivious to the storm that's coming. And I hate to say this but they'll be stupid enough to sink with the ship.
In other news, I have never before had such a plethora of men to choose from. Guys I haven't talked to in ages are coming around again. Guys i've been trying to get rid of won't go away. They all want to come over. The sad thing is that the one guy I want doesn't want me so i've been turning people down because they're not him. Which I know is ridiculous. But i'm just very frustrated.
Then I decided that some of these dudes will enable me to cross some stuff off the list. So I may be changing my mind soon.
So I found some pics of Gavin recently. Which is both wonderful and terrible.
My family is in FL. And I am working. I hate my life.
Boooooo.