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i'm so done with trying. it never gets me anywhere. i try and try so hard and i end up failing at everything.
i'm so sick of trying to be something i'm not.
i'm tired of my family, i'm tired of constantly being told i'm a let down and that i dont try hard enough or that i need to do this and that and everything else different. the only people who are supposed to accept and support me dont.
nothing makes me happy anymore. its gotten to the point where i wake up and feel dissapointed already. i honestly go through the day counting down minutes till i can just go to sleep and wish i could just sleep forever.
i used to be really happy, and i know that things in my life could be so much worse, sooo much worse, but im not happy anymore. everyone elses lives are starting, people are getting into college, people are getting boyfriends, and getting scholarships and jobs and everything. i'm staying the same, and i work my ass off everyday to get what they have but nothing it working.
i hate feeling like i'm a huge dissapointment. but thats how my mom makes me feel everyday. i cant stand it. jfklsdjflksd.
thank god for senses fail.
i'm so sick of trying to be something i'm not.
i'm tired of my family, i'm tired of constantly being told i'm a let down and that i dont try hard enough or that i need to do this and that and everything else different. the only people who are supposed to accept and support me dont.
nothing makes me happy anymore. its gotten to the point where i wake up and feel dissapointed already. i honestly go through the day counting down minutes till i can just go to sleep and wish i could just sleep forever.
i used to be really happy, and i know that things in my life could be so much worse, sooo much worse, but im not happy anymore. everyone elses lives are starting, people are getting into college, people are getting boyfriends, and getting scholarships and jobs and everything. i'm staying the same, and i work my ass off everyday to get what they have but nothing it working.
i hate feeling like i'm a huge dissapointment. but thats how my mom makes me feel everyday. i cant stand it. jfklsdjflksd.
thank god for senses fail.