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[emptyyourself]

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[thegooddrjones]

I didn't have a deal either, not for a good long while. I graduated two inmates without having one, which makes me wonder if the Admiral would give me something retroactively. But I really don't need anything other than having my life extended to match yours so you don't have to live without me, but frankly, I don't know what travelling in time and the mayflies have done to my DNA so there's that.

Also, I really like arsehole older men, and always have. It amuses me you find it thrilling.

[emptyyourself]

Do you want to leave? I can't leave. I promised Mozenrath I would stay.

If you wish to leave without me, it would -

It would make me disengage emotionally from most of the people on the Barge, cause me to behave with complete disregard for the feelings of others, and I would withdraw socially. I would probably resent both Mozenrath and Black, and would miss you terribly. I would also probably stop sleeping, or at least stop sleeping on the bed.

But I would accept it and not argue because I know you wouldn't go unless it was necessary.

[thegooddrjones]

No, I don't want to leave. I wish that you would stop thinking I want to. You are one of the few people I feel safe complaining to about anything because I know you won't judge me for doing it. But it makes me worry that it upsets you and now I'm probably going to stop doing it again.

The only way I can see myself leaving now before Mozenrath and Sirius leave is if I suddenly end up pregnant. I don't think I can become pregnant here, but if I did, I'd have to go home because it's definitely not safe to be here and pregnant.

But I would expect you to stay here with Mozenrath because he needs you, and the Admiral can make it so that no time has passed for me since you left.

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[emptyyourself]

I don't think anything you've said to me to date has made me panic as much as that reply.

First, don't stop complaining to me. Ever. It doesn't upset me.

Second, tell me you're not pregnant. I have an overwhelming need to see it in print.

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[thegooddrjones]

I'm not pregnant. We take precautions and I check every single day as soon as I get into work or have a scanner around and privacy.

I actually worry a bit that I may not be able to have children because of the time the Mayflies attempted to reset my body to human normal, but I try very hard not to think of that because I'm fairly sure it's nothing more than paranoia, because the scanner and the Doctor both told me I'm fine and healthy.

I'm sorry I made you panic.

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[emptyyourself]

...I suddenly feel very guilty for panicking, now that I have this new piece of information.

I'm sure you're fine, but I am particularly worried about you now.

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[thegooddrjones]

You don't need to feel guilty love, having a child, especially having a child now is a big step.

The Doctor and the TARDIS said I was fine, so I mostly don't worry, save for when I think about Angie and how much I want her someday.

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[emptyyourself]

I wholeheartedly believe if we have a child, it will be a boy just to spite you for naming it "Angie" before its gender was determined.

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[thegooddrjones]

Pfft. Then we'll need to come up with a boy's name. What boys names do you like?

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[emptyyourself]

I don't know.

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[thegooddrjones]

Hmm. Okay. Whom do you like and respect enough to consider naming our son after.

I like William. And Clive for a middle name.

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[emptyyourself]

Clive is a horrible name.

I'm sorry. I apologise for saying that.

But it's horrid.

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[thegooddrjones]

Alright, so not Clive. What do you suggest then?

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[emptyyourself]

I don't have any suggestions to make. I haven't given it any thought.

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Not Severus.

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[thegooddrjones]

Of course not Severus. I hate people who name sons after fathers, it makes me feel so bad for the children.

Besides Severus Snape Jr sounds horrid.

What about Hix?

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[emptyyourself]

Hix is a surname. It's not even his actual surname, at that. It's 'Hicks'. I'm not certain why he changed it. More to the point, his given name is John.