Update
I made it through June 8th with little difficulty. I can't even believe it has been 6 years. That's almost a third of my life now. That is insane. I broke down in the days approaching Dead Mom Day but on the actual day, I was just relieved it would be over soon.
Love life - God, I am frustrated. I find fault with your entire way of life and I can't believe you have lived this way for this long. Trust me, I never figured you would change your mind, but sometimes it's nice to give a person the benefit of the doubt, even if in the end you only prove yourself painfully right. It's only a matter of time now before I tell you that I'm bored with waiting and done overall. Peace. But man does it get lonely when there's no one to so much as wait around for. There's no one at all.
School is driving me nuts. Summer classes were a terrible idea. I am doing well in history, but that whole bronchitis thing kind of fucked me in Calculus, and for the first time in a class I have to admit I need some help. Which I am getting now, but I really hate seeking someone out despite my pride. I feel helpless when I admit that I can't handle something alone.
Work is annoying the hell out of me. I can't wait until I find a way to quit, or at least find a second job and make Geno's part-time. I love when Christina and I work, and everyone else sits down to chat. It's cute really, especially at 7 bucks an hour.
Ugh. Gee, why have I been drinking so much?
Love life - God, I am frustrated. I find fault with your entire way of life and I can't believe you have lived this way for this long. Trust me, I never figured you would change your mind, but sometimes it's nice to give a person the benefit of the doubt, even if in the end you only prove yourself painfully right. It's only a matter of time now before I tell you that I'm bored with waiting and done overall. Peace. But man does it get lonely when there's no one to so much as wait around for. There's no one at all.
School is driving me nuts. Summer classes were a terrible idea. I am doing well in history, but that whole bronchitis thing kind of fucked me in Calculus, and for the first time in a class I have to admit I need some help. Which I am getting now, but I really hate seeking someone out despite my pride. I feel helpless when I admit that I can't handle something alone.
Work is annoying the hell out of me. I can't wait until I find a way to quit, or at least find a second job and make Geno's part-time. I love when Christina and I work, and everyone else sits down to chat. It's cute really, especially at 7 bucks an hour.
Ugh. Gee, why have I been drinking so much?