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Everyone is acting very strangely.
Perhaps not *strange* (as they are my friends) but out of character.
Angry, depressed, anxious, or just plain moody.
Though I'm unsure as to whether it's just my perception clouded by sleep deprivation.
Third night without really sleeping. It's getting beyond a joke.
I hate my bed and the cold emptiness. I turn on the radio just to hear the sound of human voices.
I threw myself into my work in class today. It's nice to be so sick of drawing that my fingers arent constantly twitching and I'm not doodling on every surface I see.
I'm on a huge competition with another in my class, she's just as good as me and I'm determined to be better than her. She's gorgeous and one of those sickeningly stable perfect people. It's not right that she has talent too!
I love being the arrogant bitch that I am.
I'm worried about so many people- in particular my baby brother...
I'm so damn scared that he's as depressed as I once was...
I went to play pool tonight and felt somehow disconected from those which I once called my friends. I hadn't seen alot of then since last year and everyone has *changed*.
I don't like it when people change.
Though staring me in the face each day is the fact I've changed too.
For the better I think.
I feel as if Ive grown up alot in the past few months.
Perhaps not *strange* (as they are my friends) but out of character.
Angry, depressed, anxious, or just plain moody.
Though I'm unsure as to whether it's just my perception clouded by sleep deprivation.
Third night without really sleeping. It's getting beyond a joke.
I hate my bed and the cold emptiness. I turn on the radio just to hear the sound of human voices.
I threw myself into my work in class today. It's nice to be so sick of drawing that my fingers arent constantly twitching and I'm not doodling on every surface I see.
I'm on a huge competition with another in my class, she's just as good as me and I'm determined to be better than her. She's gorgeous and one of those sickeningly stable perfect people. It's not right that she has talent too!
I love being the arrogant bitch that I am.
I'm worried about so many people- in particular my baby brother...
I'm so damn scared that he's as depressed as I once was...
I went to play pool tonight and felt somehow disconected from those which I once called my friends. I hadn't seen alot of then since last year and everyone has *changed*.
I don't like it when people change.
Though staring me in the face each day is the fact I've changed too.
For the better I think.
I feel as if Ive grown up alot in the past few months.