Finding religion in a world of perpetual blindness
So I don't know exactly why, but I been in a drifty sort of mood as of lates. I swing from happy to sad to depressed to enraged to drunkfrenzyofretardedness. I smoked a cigarette about an hour ago, and I don't smoke. I watched Garden State, that was a good movie. Some reason getting high sounds like an awesomething thing to do, and I've never had this urge before, as I am by no means a pot head.
Driving around late at night kind of makes you gain some focus, so I will probably do that again sometime soon. Ever look up? Like, at night. There's a lot of amazing things up in the sky. It just makes me feel so small. But in this world, everyones too busy with the here, the now, adn too busy looking at their feet on the ground and not looking up. I a dreamer, and my mind wanders in and out of this here and now all the time. I think way too much, I think. Funny what I just said, I think I think too much. God I am funny.
I been trying to cry all night, why? I haven't cried in a long long time. But you know when you cry, that moment when you finally see your life into perspective, where things kind of make sense, and you have an surging feeling of understanding, I wanted that. So i tried. I tried very hard, thinking about many things that have my life in a state of unbalance, all the things that ever hurt me, and all the things I worry about. Nothing came. I am still working on it..
Best quote of the night:
"Don't tease me about my hobbies. I don't tease you about being an asshole."
Driving around late at night kind of makes you gain some focus, so I will probably do that again sometime soon. Ever look up? Like, at night. There's a lot of amazing things up in the sky. It just makes me feel so small. But in this world, everyones too busy with the here, the now, adn too busy looking at their feet on the ground and not looking up. I a dreamer, and my mind wanders in and out of this here and now all the time. I think way too much, I think. Funny what I just said, I think I think too much. God I am funny.
I been trying to cry all night, why? I haven't cried in a long long time. But you know when you cry, that moment when you finally see your life into perspective, where things kind of make sense, and you have an surging feeling of understanding, I wanted that. So i tried. I tried very hard, thinking about many things that have my life in a state of unbalance, all the things that ever hurt me, and all the things I worry about. Nothing came. I am still working on it..
Best quote of the night:
"Don't tease me about my hobbies. I don't tease you about being an asshole."