KP/SD I LOVE YOU!!!!!
it's thursday! that means i'm on duty! ohhhh yeah. i got some awesome books today. one on a feminist view of eating disorders and american additude of food and health. it's one of those books that challenges me in many ways, as i do agree with her very wholeheartedly but at the same time i am a victim of our societies food hate and it's very hard to break. like this is one of those things that you learn early and it takes the rest of your life to break free from. it makes me sad bc it is an issue that i am battling daily within myself. as i walk to class, as i eat breakfast, even as i sit here at this very moment. it's the pull to be happy with who you are as you are or the desire to be a standard where you think you will be happy. it makes me so mad that i can't escape it like i want to. it makes me even more mad that i can't decide if i want to eat the pizza in my fridge. man fuck this shit. i hate american thought.
in other news, i love my ethics class. nick needs to actually pay attention to me instead of playing games while i sit on the couch until i fall asleep. did my mentor app. forgot about clothes in the washer so i have to wait until like one thirty before i can sleep. stupid omega. personal pole: is my name a "fat girl" name? what consisutes a name sounding like it belongs to someone fat? yeah i know i said i would drop the issue, but i just can't, not until every detail is analysed. sorry. got to talk with amber tonight, i love my residents. they rock. i really missed them during break. also, should i spend 40 bucks on buttons? i really want to. they are hot buttons. and i'm getting a new suit mate. her name is jennifer. ren now has a roommate. we'll see how this ends. i need to do dishes, my mind is so scattered.
birth is totally scary. goodnight.
in other news, i love my ethics class. nick needs to actually pay attention to me instead of playing games while i sit on the couch until i fall asleep. did my mentor app. forgot about clothes in the washer so i have to wait until like one thirty before i can sleep. stupid omega. personal pole: is my name a "fat girl" name? what consisutes a name sounding like it belongs to someone fat? yeah i know i said i would drop the issue, but i just can't, not until every detail is analysed. sorry. got to talk with amber tonight, i love my residents. they rock. i really missed them during break. also, should i spend 40 bucks on buttons? i really want to. they are hot buttons. and i'm getting a new suit mate. her name is jennifer. ren now has a roommate. we'll see how this ends. i need to do dishes, my mind is so scattered.
birth is totally scary. goodnight.