Dear Josh,
I'm writing another letter to you that I know you'll never read.
You're gone on a hike with your Dad right now, and I'm here, at Nan's house at quarter after six in the morning, unable to sleep and thinking about you. It's raining outside here and I'm wondering if it is where you are.
I talked to your Mom 2 days ago. She said she talked to you about me. She said that you think the only reason that I want you is because I've never had you. I hope you know in your heart that isn't true. She also said that you thought that if we were to get together and break up, that I'd be over it in a day. This also is not true. I am not that cold hearted. I could not just forget. You know me better than that, I don't forget about anything.
My honest feelings, even what I told your Mom is that I do love you. And I could be with you. But not right now. If I were to be yours, I would want to be yours for forever. Something I just can't commit myself to right now. It's scary. It's scary to be in love with someone you've known since you were in preschool. It's scary to know you love that person and want to be with them until you die when you're only 16.
It bothers me to see you and The Girl together. There's a lot of jealousy there to get over, and there's nothing I could ask you to do about it that would be fair in any sense. I know I can't expect you to drop everything for me, and I don't think I'd want you to. I can only imagine that you've felt that way before and hopefully you can understand why I feel that way.
I'm feeling really emotional. I really want you to come home. I want to talk to you, but I'm afraid that the things that I would have to say would upset you in one way or another, turning the relatively good state of our relationship rotten.
Come home soon, Josh. I miss you.
Love,
Lacey
You're gone on a hike with your Dad right now, and I'm here, at Nan's house at quarter after six in the morning, unable to sleep and thinking about you. It's raining outside here and I'm wondering if it is where you are.
I talked to your Mom 2 days ago. She said she talked to you about me. She said that you think the only reason that I want you is because I've never had you. I hope you know in your heart that isn't true. She also said that you thought that if we were to get together and break up, that I'd be over it in a day. This also is not true. I am not that cold hearted. I could not just forget. You know me better than that, I don't forget about anything.
My honest feelings, even what I told your Mom is that I do love you. And I could be with you. But not right now. If I were to be yours, I would want to be yours for forever. Something I just can't commit myself to right now. It's scary. It's scary to be in love with someone you've known since you were in preschool. It's scary to know you love that person and want to be with them until you die when you're only 16.
It bothers me to see you and The Girl together. There's a lot of jealousy there to get over, and there's nothing I could ask you to do about it that would be fair in any sense. I know I can't expect you to drop everything for me, and I don't think I'd want you to. I can only imagine that you've felt that way before and hopefully you can understand why I feel that way.
I'm feeling really emotional. I really want you to come home. I want to talk to you, but I'm afraid that the things that I would have to say would upset you in one way or another, turning the relatively good state of our relationship rotten.
Come home soon, Josh. I miss you.
Love,
Lacey