How's it gonna be?
You know what, there are some things you cannot control.
There are some people you cannot control.
There are some events you cannot control.
You cannot control your life.
I have never thought that I would wanna run away from life again.
That happened to me in Pitman I loathed my life so much I ran away.
And I found the most amazing life, with the most amazing people, and the most incredible experiences.
Well my friend they have officially run dry.
There are no more amazing people.
There are no more amazing experiences.
Just heart break and hurt.
I thought I pulled myself out of a rut, however I didn't.
Life is one big rut you never get out of.
You just get closer to escaping.
You can get to the tip top and have one leg up and out, but the second you get too confident in thinking to that you made it out of there in one piece you lose your balance and smack your face on the bottom.
Apparently my amazing boyfriend won't last long. Apparently with school starting work, and him having army stuff/ my friends we wont make it. So apparently Im wasting my time with him or something.
And I hate that I'm wasting my time on shit friends.
Who think I am shit.
Maybe I am shit.
I am for even writing this.
I also bask in my own self loathing.
There are some people you cannot control.
There are some events you cannot control.
You cannot control your life.
I have never thought that I would wanna run away from life again.
That happened to me in Pitman I loathed my life so much I ran away.
And I found the most amazing life, with the most amazing people, and the most incredible experiences.
Well my friend they have officially run dry.
There are no more amazing people.
There are no more amazing experiences.
Just heart break and hurt.
I thought I pulled myself out of a rut, however I didn't.
Life is one big rut you never get out of.
You just get closer to escaping.
You can get to the tip top and have one leg up and out, but the second you get too confident in thinking to that you made it out of there in one piece you lose your balance and smack your face on the bottom.
Apparently my amazing boyfriend won't last long. Apparently with school starting work, and him having army stuff/ my friends we wont make it. So apparently Im wasting my time with him or something.
And I hate that I'm wasting my time on shit friends.
Who think I am shit.
Maybe I am shit.
I am for even writing this.
I also bask in my own self loathing.