"peter pitter patters on the window"
what can i say for thiw week. sing the praises that school is almost out for spring break. it's set...i'm going ot hawaii, and i'm meeting my sister. i have no idea what i'm doing on thursday, i feel very indecisive. i keep reading people's journals that went on the life for youth retreat, and i feel like as they're getting more spiritual, i'm losing sight of what is important. i kind of feel like i've drifted from mckenzie in these past few days, but i dont know why. i probably had a dream about it, and it's affected my whole week. i haven't talked to her in a long while, i'm not too sure why. all of the people on the retreat had such a good time to think about everything with god, and i feel like i'm not getting much out of church anymore. when i came back form winterlight, i had an amazing and enlightening time, but i dont think anyone really craed to listen to me. i feel like im getting too caught up in everything from school, and all of my friends from school, and i havent been able to hang out with mckenzie or caroline for the past few weekends for various reasons, but i think im starting to base my life around my friends, and i need to get out of that habit. i'm very confused about everything right now, all i can think about is going to hawaii on friday...i guess that's not so good to be that caught up in a vacation. i had much more profound things going through my head earlier, but now i forget them all.