i haven't been happier since...

[empty_spoon]

respect. that's the theme for today. people i have respect for, and people i don't. it's a shame when you think you know someone, and then they completely let you down. my entire theory for not doing things has been shut down. i still don't want to, but now i feel like i don't have a good enough reason not to. someone who shall remain anonymous has let me down. i didn't think they were that easily persuaded. maybe you're not the person i thought you were. so then what's the point in spending time with you? i tried to be normal, and look at it as if you were just another cliche falling into the assembly line, but it hurts. but don't worry, you're not the only one who's let you down. just another example of following the crowd. there are others put there who have done the same thing. i can think of two. plus many more. there are others who vow not to do it, but i know they have in the past. i'll do my best to stay the same, but i can't help think that i need to change.

But I know we all can't stay here forever,
so I want to write my words on the face of today.
and then they'll paint it
And oh as I fade away,
they'll all look at me and they'll say,
Hey look at her and where she is these days.
When life is hard, you have to change.
--blind melon, change