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I know so many people had similar experiences like mine; getting dumped by the ones they love. It makes me wonder though. How in the world do they find value and purpose in life? I mean, Alex and I were connected. Or so I thought. She understood me, and I her. So what went wrong? I was madly in love. And I'm left wondering, though she said she was, if she even felt the same way. Its driving me insane. I mean it. I'm going crazy over this. I have had very little sleep in the past five days, I'm sick as hell, and I'm on the verge of vomiting.
People would wonder if I was treated so badly then wouldn't I be able to easily get over it? Well, she didn't really treat me bad. In fact, during the relationship she treated me quite well. Its just the break up doesn't make any sense. It was all great, and I even met her parents, but two days after that, just out of the blue she dumps me. And I'd get over it, but this one's different. She was the first person to know I'm a dragon. That's where alot of the understanding came from, because we shared that same personal belief. And that's why its so hard. It doesn't just feel like a bruised heart. It feels like my soul is dieing.
She messaged me with blessings of a merry christmas. And I snapped at her. I hate feeling like this. This is the worst I've ever felt in my life. And I don't want to hate her. It hurts me more than anything to hate her. I don't know if I can survive this...
People would wonder if I was treated so badly then wouldn't I be able to easily get over it? Well, she didn't really treat me bad. In fact, during the relationship she treated me quite well. Its just the break up doesn't make any sense. It was all great, and I even met her parents, but two days after that, just out of the blue she dumps me. And I'd get over it, but this one's different. She was the first person to know I'm a dragon. That's where alot of the understanding came from, because we shared that same personal belief. And that's why its so hard. It doesn't just feel like a bruised heart. It feels like my soul is dieing.
She messaged me with blessings of a merry christmas. And I snapped at her. I hate feeling like this. This is the worst I've ever felt in my life. And I don't want to hate her. It hurts me more than anything to hate her. I don't know if I can survive this...