i'll be the perfect someone, that you'll never know

Mar 09, 2004 03:16



i know so well that you can list your friends
but you can't count on them.
FRIENDS ONLY
comment/suck up to be added.
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Bekah

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reasons you're not on the list empty_promise April 13 2004, 03:18:48 UTC
Where were you when my Grandpa almost died, again? Where were you when I was fighting with my Mom so much I actually packed a bag and was ready to run away? Where were you when I didn't eat for three days because my Mom said I needed to loose weight? Where were you when everything I'd worked for and all the effort I'd put towards school got chalked up to nothing? Where are you when I'm crying in the middle of the night, and I don't know how to get back to the person that I want to, and used to be? Where were you when I had to stay up till all hours of the night to take care of my drunk sister? Where were you when I wanted to die so badly? Where were you when I closed the first site I ever created?

I know where you were when we were supposed to do something for your birthday. Not anywhere near your "best friends." You weren't even there for me when my body was doing it's little shake fest, and I was so terrified because I didn't know if I was even going to wake up the next morning. Where was the best friend you claim to be at the movies when you said one of the most hurtful things anyone has ever said to me? In 2004, you've made five replies to my journal. So, to be completley honest, I don't really want to add you as a friend because I don't feel like you've been there for me when I've really needed you, and that's not what a friend is to me. I'm not mad at you, I don't know if we can work it out. I kind of feel like you shut yourself out of my life. But right now, I need to be able to post about my feelings without drama.
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