Nov 15, 2006 21:52
You wrote back.
My astonishment is genuine. Even if it was one word.
After all you have every right to ask "how?". I still wish you could have had the heart to even just sign your name.
I'll cut to the chase however and hope that it produces a more thought provoking response from you.
I never thought it was a mystery how I could love you. Most people spend their lives searching for that "perfect" companion, void of any flaws. Of course it's an unreasonable search that often leads us to "settle" on a mate out of fear of loneliness. In rarer instances, some people become shells of themselves living alone soaked in the failure of their chase for an unblemished lover.
I myself have been guilty of pursuing this quest. I feel it changed with you.
As I have constantly reminded you, you are not perfect...but at the risk of sounding cliche for quoting a singer, I always found that "all your faults are in me". I always saw a great compatibility between our imperfections. A vast majority would think this to repel me from you, finding no attraction in something so close to myself. Some have wondered how I could love someone who's insufficiencies paralleled mine, comparing it to loving the person that I had built for myself.
They all forget that we are human beings and not magnets though. I always found that no one had a better understanding of my inner workings better than you. in reality it's all I could ever ask for in a mate. Someone who could fully comprehend and accept my points of view and actions.
Most view it as loving a carbon copy of my own personality.
I see it as loving the sole person capable of grasping my needs and desires.
At the same time I see past our similarities into asymmetry that makes us work. I have no trouble admitting that we are worlds apart in more than one way. Yet the how is in our likeness...
You make me understand myself better than any other person could ever hope to.
Duncan
to: grainne