Its not even time to go yet...

[empty_hopes]

but my heart is already breaking.
I don't want to leave.
I want to be happy..
I don't want to feel like the people who are supposed to be my family in GSO make me feel.

I'm short of breath right now, from crying already.
My chest hurts.
My eyes burn.

I need to go pack.
I need to get ready to go, so he won't be on the road absolutely ALL night.
He has work at 9 in the morning.. ~Sigh~ I'm already depriving him of rest he needs.

I need something.
But its prolly something I can't have.. not for two weeks at least.

~Sigh~
I hate life now.