Just here.
So here I am- at my Grandmothers place. I leave in 4 days! just 4 days!- it's so unreal. I already sent packages out to be mailed. I shall begin packing by tomorrow. Everything is moving so slow yet fast as hell- makes no sense I know.
I spoke to my Father last night, it's never a loving conversation between the tow of us. When I arrive in New York on wednesday- you would think I would see him- But ofcourse reality has once again fucked me in the ass.-
I wont see him till sunday, after my Mother leaves. He hasn't seen her since we left New York- Which was about 13 years ago. And because he's so fucking self absorbed- he doesn't want to see her. He can't put his childish ways behind him.
I understand my parent don't get along. but if just for one day I could actually see them side by side. 18 years of life and I've never seen my parents side by side.
There so much more to this story- but even writing about it bring tears.
I have to breathe until wednesday- which means I have to focus on anything but my life.
I'll post later.
Fuck this World-
Life On Stage...
I spoke to my Father last night, it's never a loving conversation between the tow of us. When I arrive in New York on wednesday- you would think I would see him- But ofcourse reality has once again fucked me in the ass.-
I wont see him till sunday, after my Mother leaves. He hasn't seen her since we left New York- Which was about 13 years ago. And because he's so fucking self absorbed- he doesn't want to see her. He can't put his childish ways behind him.
I understand my parent don't get along. but if just for one day I could actually see them side by side. 18 years of life and I've never seen my parents side by side.
There so much more to this story- but even writing about it bring tears.
I have to breathe until wednesday- which means I have to focus on anything but my life.
I'll post later.
Fuck this World-
Life On Stage...