Forever Is Not Long Enough When Im With You
Life just seems to rip at my soul.
So mom finally had the baby. He is 8 pounds and his names James. Its not so bad i guess...just weird.
Things with Dustin are going better then expected. He came over last week. I had alot of fun...fallen so inlove with him its pathetic really.
School is alright....only sum ppl in there id rather do without. (not naming who) I will forever be scared and paranoid on the bus(u dont wanna kno)I was violated on the bus by the most disgusting guy.
On the other hand lifes been really good these past 5 weeks. Probally cuz im with dustin. Although this week i was a little scared all this would end, but it didnt. THANK GOD. This is the longest i havent hurt myself or dangerously depressed.
I'm getting better at everything, guitar....my self esteem. I can finally look at myself in the mirror and not be disgusted. I can fianlly smile at everything and not worry about what i will soon be without. I no longer care about what happened in the past it is all over. Best of all I now like myself for who I am and what I've become. I think i've fianlly beaten this....ok lets not get too out of hand. I have beaten most of it, its a good start and im so close to rising above all my pain.
Well i've said all I can think of for now...but before i go i just wanna say I love you Dustin and thanks for making mylife sooo much better. To where i wanna get up in the morning and can't wait for the next day. I never thought i could ever feel this way and I'm still amazed about how much better you've made my life. Ok. enough said i will go
jess
So mom finally had the baby. He is 8 pounds and his names James. Its not so bad i guess...just weird.
Things with Dustin are going better then expected. He came over last week. I had alot of fun...fallen so inlove with him its pathetic really.
School is alright....only sum ppl in there id rather do without. (not naming who) I will forever be scared and paranoid on the bus(u dont wanna kno)I was violated on the bus by the most disgusting guy.
On the other hand lifes been really good these past 5 weeks. Probally cuz im with dustin. Although this week i was a little scared all this would end, but it didnt. THANK GOD. This is the longest i havent hurt myself or dangerously depressed.
I'm getting better at everything, guitar....my self esteem. I can finally look at myself in the mirror and not be disgusted. I can fianlly smile at everything and not worry about what i will soon be without. I no longer care about what happened in the past it is all over. Best of all I now like myself for who I am and what I've become. I think i've fianlly beaten this....ok lets not get too out of hand. I have beaten most of it, its a good start and im so close to rising above all my pain.
Well i've said all I can think of for now...but before i go i just wanna say I love you Dustin and thanks for making mylife sooo much better. To where i wanna get up in the morning and can't wait for the next day. I never thought i could ever feel this way and I'm still amazed about how much better you've made my life. Ok. enough said i will go
jess