mi life will and always suck
So everything sucks again. I hate life i really do. I hate waking up in the morning and going to school, to see all those ppl. I so sick of it. Im so sick of my parents too, never leave me alone. Pisses me off to no end!! Lately ive just been sitting on my fat ass. NOthing else to do. All this snow is cool, there isnt enough! Sometimes i wonder why i havent just killed myself, others i dont its crazy. Life is dragging on so slow. So many things are going wrong. I miss how it feels to be ok. Not much has happened i guess since i last wrote. I got into a huge fight with my parents. Was awful but i dont feel like going over it. Ive ran out of hope that ill get another b/f netime soon. Even tho my ex is slowly turning into my stalker. I like this kid dustin but he has a gf. And i did the stupidest thing neone could do and told him i liked him :(. O well might as well strip down my pride and show the world how i bleed. Didnt go to school friday. Stayed home to help out a friend. Now im just waiting for something good to happen. Dustin told me the greatest thing last night and made me think that maybe there is a god. Its crazy. I told him how i just kinda lost faith after awhile. And he sed that believeing in god is why he is still here. lol it touched me i dono y. But maybe he is right. Guitar is going pretty well. Ive gotten better alot better. Well im done bye