A girl disappearing to some secret prison
Behind my eyes I whisper "Big Surprise". I mean seriously, this is my own fault and I guess you warned me didn't you? Now I am in a rut. Should I keep being ridiculous and calling and missing and crying and wondering when it'll be over...or should I put my head down and truck on through it the way you have...and just forget about you? It's a hard decision to make because when it comes down to it, I realise that I do want to be with you forever but I gave that up and now I am just stuck between giving it up for REAL and not fighting for what I feel like I need in my life or moving on and becoming independent. Giving up any chance of it ever happening again...even though I think I may have already done that. It isn't so much the fighting for it that kills me...it's the sounding desperate and the not knowing if what I am doing makes any difference...I guess I'll just think about it...until then I am not speaking until spoken to...i think...we'll see how that goes