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Thoughts::
So I'm sitting here in a towel, typing this entry because I did not want to forget it later... I swear I have a memory span of about 20 minutes. SO here it goes, I was in the shower listening to some old cd's when a Josie and the Pussycats song came on. I had an instant flash back to the days of the infinite three. (for those of you who met me after my sophomore year you will have no clue what I'm talking about). I then remembered that when we saw the movie Tinie and Ryan were on a "group date" (he hated those) and Kelly and Rob were also on the date. I was a tag-a long with Geoff and Becky. Wholly crap. The memories that were running through my head. I remember Tinie's breakup with Ryan and the endless sleepovers and parties I threw every weekend. Just wow. I’m not exactly sure how I did it all... then again my work load was a lot less, and I didn’t have a car that keeps crapping out on me. That movie came out in April of 2001. Not a long time ago folks. But yet it seems like ages. Kelly, Becky, Tinie and I all had class with Alyward last per. We did nothing in that class accept for create our own language, talk about painting (aka sex), and our usual girl problems. Relationships were easy, there was nothing to them. Our biggest relationship problem was how to get time alone and how many people were coming on our group dates. We all knew they weren't going to last, just something to fill the void. Perhaps. Maybe it was all experimental, as the doctors say, maybe we did it just to be able to say we had one. For what ever reason we all knew that they would end we just didn't know when. Ryan was then passed onto me. Kelly was still with Rob, Laura met Mike and Dee was now with Kevin, Suzie was now with Brian. My Brian ended up in Jail and thank God for that. And life was still fun. This was when stuff started getting complicated. Relationships started getting complicated. Dee was the first of us to have sex, which brought a shock wave to all of us, but we were happy and over joyed. Group dates were now a part of the past. I started liking James while I was going out with Ryan (only the girls knew, and they knew him as Jo, which became his name for about 4 months). People were now having alone time with their boyfriends, and relationship became deep and serious. Dee and Kevin were practically married, same with Laura and Mike. Kelly was no longer with Rob after the what 4th time cheating on her?? But yet I still was never comfortable with the whole serious relationship thing. I sat and watched my friends get into these deep passionate relationships and somewhere I got left behind. I then was introduced to Jay in Feb. sometime. I liked him because he was anything but serious. When I was with Jay I had fun. That was short lived though. Now I'm in college and I have two options, to get involved in a super serious relationship or become a whore and sleep with many many guys. But what if I don't want that? What happened to group dates and dating just to have fun? Why does it have to be super serious and deep? I've been single since the summer of my junior year in high school. I've dated, dating, seen guys, and broken many hearts (as George saz). But yet I haven't found that fun relationship. And I can only sit here and wonder, Can I have a relationship with out it being super serious or should I cave in and be miserable but not alone?
"Why you have to go and make things so complicated?" Avril...
::My Life::
So Last night was interesting, which led to the decision that answered the question, yes we need to have a suite meeting because we do have problems with each other and we need to fix them before another "night that didn't happen" occurs. The whole suite has super spring cleaning itch because it’s about 45 degrees and the warm weather makes you get that way. I ran and Fed cooch (our gerbil) and cleaned her tank yesterday. I need to clean depressed hal's tank. Procrastination is key. lol. I think were gunna watch a movie in the suite tonight, but I'm not 100 % sure yet. It's been a slow day, but a nice one. I'm glad to have a weekend break after such fun last few weekends I've had, (I owe that for Matt... Thanks honnie ;) ) April is around the corner which means a new house, summer break and back to Mass which I miss so dearly. Well I just I’m outta words! I gotta go get dressed and do my hair ect... so I hope you enjoyed being in my head... Lata!
So I'm sitting here in a towel, typing this entry because I did not want to forget it later... I swear I have a memory span of about 20 minutes. SO here it goes, I was in the shower listening to some old cd's when a Josie and the Pussycats song came on. I had an instant flash back to the days of the infinite three. (for those of you who met me after my sophomore year you will have no clue what I'm talking about). I then remembered that when we saw the movie Tinie and Ryan were on a "group date" (he hated those) and Kelly and Rob were also on the date. I was a tag-a long with Geoff and Becky. Wholly crap. The memories that were running through my head. I remember Tinie's breakup with Ryan and the endless sleepovers and parties I threw every weekend. Just wow. I’m not exactly sure how I did it all... then again my work load was a lot less, and I didn’t have a car that keeps crapping out on me. That movie came out in April of 2001. Not a long time ago folks. But yet it seems like ages. Kelly, Becky, Tinie and I all had class with Alyward last per. We did nothing in that class accept for create our own language, talk about painting (aka sex), and our usual girl problems. Relationships were easy, there was nothing to them. Our biggest relationship problem was how to get time alone and how many people were coming on our group dates. We all knew they weren't going to last, just something to fill the void. Perhaps. Maybe it was all experimental, as the doctors say, maybe we did it just to be able to say we had one. For what ever reason we all knew that they would end we just didn't know when. Ryan was then passed onto me. Kelly was still with Rob, Laura met Mike and Dee was now with Kevin, Suzie was now with Brian. My Brian ended up in Jail and thank God for that. And life was still fun. This was when stuff started getting complicated. Relationships started getting complicated. Dee was the first of us to have sex, which brought a shock wave to all of us, but we were happy and over joyed. Group dates were now a part of the past. I started liking James while I was going out with Ryan (only the girls knew, and they knew him as Jo, which became his name for about 4 months). People were now having alone time with their boyfriends, and relationship became deep and serious. Dee and Kevin were practically married, same with Laura and Mike. Kelly was no longer with Rob after the what 4th time cheating on her?? But yet I still was never comfortable with the whole serious relationship thing. I sat and watched my friends get into these deep passionate relationships and somewhere I got left behind. I then was introduced to Jay in Feb. sometime. I liked him because he was anything but serious. When I was with Jay I had fun. That was short lived though. Now I'm in college and I have two options, to get involved in a super serious relationship or become a whore and sleep with many many guys. But what if I don't want that? What happened to group dates and dating just to have fun? Why does it have to be super serious and deep? I've been single since the summer of my junior year in high school. I've dated, dating, seen guys, and broken many hearts (as George saz). But yet I haven't found that fun relationship. And I can only sit here and wonder, Can I have a relationship with out it being super serious or should I cave in and be miserable but not alone?
"Why you have to go and make things so complicated?" Avril...
::My Life::
So Last night was interesting, which led to the decision that answered the question, yes we need to have a suite meeting because we do have problems with each other and we need to fix them before another "night that didn't happen" occurs. The whole suite has super spring cleaning itch because it’s about 45 degrees and the warm weather makes you get that way. I ran and Fed cooch (our gerbil) and cleaned her tank yesterday. I need to clean depressed hal's tank. Procrastination is key. lol. I think were gunna watch a movie in the suite tonight, but I'm not 100 % sure yet. It's been a slow day, but a nice one. I'm glad to have a weekend break after such fun last few weekends I've had, (I owe that for Matt... Thanks honnie ;) ) April is around the corner which means a new house, summer break and back to Mass which I miss so dearly. Well I just I’m outta words! I gotta go get dressed and do my hair ect... so I hope you enjoyed being in my head... Lata!