a long, long time ago

[empressjolie]

so i was inspired last night...i was up late and talking online to my best friend and i was telling him a story about one of my other best friends and so... this is what i wrote:

back when we used to live in the same place
i didn't know
we ate together and sang together
back when we used to waste the same time
i didn't know
we talked together and kissed other people together
back when we used to share the same love
i didn't know

i didn't know
that he hit you
that i loved you
that he owned us
that we worshipped him
that you loved me
that my body wasn't your home the way my heart was
i didn't know

back when we used breathe in the same space
i didn't know
we shared ice cream and mocked life together
back when we used to drown in the same atmosphere
i didn't know
we drank and danced and seduced together
back when we used to be a package deal
i didn't know

i didn't know
that wanting him destroyed us
that i didn't really want him
that i wanted you
that he was molding us into whom he wanted us to become
i didn't know
i didn't know
i didn't know

it wasn't exactly the best time of my life. but it was this life changing experience and i was never the same person afterward. i don't know how we stayed such good friends, but we did. i miss her. i never want to speak to him again.